Thank you *updated*

Thank you for all these. Really appreciate it.

Thank you, dear students...

Thank you, dear students...

Thank you to cousins for the small celebration. Celebrating my uncle and me. 

Happy birthday to uncle too!

When the nephew accidentally touched the cake. He went like uuaarrrrgghhhhhh

Crying

*updated*

Met my former classmates last weekend. Gosh. Thank you for all the food and cake. Huhuhu. So nice you people. Friends since we were 13 years old till today...

To the three of them, happy anniversary on your appointment as civil servants!!! Be good nurses and a good therapist, please. Hehehehe

Seriously, whenever I meet my friends, most of them are involve in the medical field. And I always be the odd one since am involve in the education field. 

Thank you for this! 

Saya belanja satu gambar. 

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And another surprised from our colleagues. Oh so sweet....

 Happy belated to Azie and me! We both born on the same month, different date and different year. *hug hug*

So, can wrap up October??? May all be blessed with more blessings and fortune!!!!

Thank you

Thank you for the gift. I really appreciate it. Luckily it wasn't dark choc. 

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Tough situations build strong people

I was so pissed last night.
You see, whenever I take my bath, I always have my BlackBerry with me. I listen to music using it. So like always, I went to bath last night with my BlackBerry.

I placed it on the top of the water tank of the loo.
I was sitting on the toilet bowl, oh goshhhh.
Do I have to explain really detail on this???

Ya, it was like that, when my phone suddenly vibrated and the next thing I knew, it hit my back and dropped directly into the toilet bowl. And it all happened while I was doing my number two. Get it??

Oh grossss

I was dumbfounded by that. I just freeze, staring blankly ahead at the wall. Didn't know what to do. I just got up and stared at the toilet bowl thinking whether to save the phone or to just flush it down.
Aaaaaaaaaaaaaa

I just picked the phone as quickly as I could, then washed it many many times using whatever shower cream, shampoo I have.

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
Tears rolling down on my face. Seriously. It was dead. My BlackBerry is dead.
Already dead.
My BlackBerry.
I remember washing it last night, I took out the sim card and threw it away. I tried to dry my phone. Damn it.

Why oh why

And this morning I found out BlackBerry Key2 is already release.
Isn't this like a prophecy for me to buy the latest BlackBerry? At least that was what my friend told me when I told her about this incident.
I just hate using the latest phone I have now.
Maybe BlackBerry isn't the same as the previous BlackBerry with BB10, but it still carries the name, the label.
How I wish BlackBerry phone still carries its BB10 together... It makes my life easier. Seriously.

*Update*
Remember when I told about my student on my previous post? About her family, her father who was bedridden after getting a stroke and needed to get a surgery as soon as possible? She's doing my subject this semester. And sad news, her father passed away one or two weeks ago after the surgery. When I asked her, he died in coma or did he regain his conscious after the surgery?
She said, no, he did not. He died in coma. I felt sad hearing that. But I guess, she shouldn't feel sad because she already fulfill her duty as a child. I told her, condolence. So now it's time for her to focus on her study. I hope she will always stay strong with whatever things she has to go through.

(Source: Google Images)

Life as an educator: Part 5 - When you being too random

When you tried to be serious, and they ended up being serious too....

But in the end you were the one who being ridiculous and being too random

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Life as an educator: Part 4 - Happy Teacher's Day!!

Happy Teacher's Day to all educators around the world!!!

And thank you to families and students for the wish. 

Hehehehe

Once a teacher, forever a teacher. 

But gosh, I still prefer the word educator than teacher.

Have to go now. Am in the midst of watching BTS Comeback Preview Show on VLive. 

Fake Love will be released today at 5pm (Malaysia time).

With this, happy holiday!!! I'll be on leave starting tomorrow until June 3rd, 2018. So, most probably am not going to update anything here. Meeennnnnnn, need to reset body and mind before start the new semester later in June. 

Adios!

The light

Thank you, dear student, for these key chains. I really appreciate it.

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The light. 

Took this while I was waiting for the food ordered.

Life as an educator: Part 3 - Do you know...

Do you know what are the things that make us the educator feeling sad? And disappointed?
One of the things is when you get caught cheating during exam. It marks as a failure in fulfilling our job as an eductor. Seriously.

Personally to me, when something like this happen, it feels like my world has been crushed down.

It feels like, what have I done wrong that triggers you to cheat during exam?

It makes us feel like a failure.

A failure to nurture you into a good person.
A failure to shape you into someone with responsibility.

It is a failure.

We may not say it to you, or even show you how disappointed we feel, but you never know..

When we get home, when we are alone, we tend to wonder why this happen. Is it really our fault or it is just the students themselves....

So for long am in this field, working in a higher institution, there was only one time one of my students got caught cheating during exam. I remember how I felt. Devastated. Disappointed. You name it. I kept on questioning myself for few days. Where did I do wrong? What did I do to deserve this kind of attitude? I was there for 16 weeks and all I asked was for you to do your best in three hours time. And yet you gave me this. Hhhhmmmm

Yesterday one student got caught cheating in exam. Ironically the student said there were two other students who cheated as well. No names were given. They planned it together but only one got caught.

You see, 15 minutes before the exam starts is very crucial for you. You have to be at the exam room or hall for at least 20 minutes before the exam starts. Some people will say that, owh, why so traditional and so on. Hey, that 20 minutes we read to you the administrative order on the conduct of exam. We tell, instruct you, before we go and check on you one by one. When we say, please check if you bring any papers into the room, even blank papers, please put them away outside. How good is that... Hhhmmmm

From my own perspective, it's not only exam. Besides to measure your knowledge, to evaluate you, exam teaches you to be responsible in your own doing, to teach you to take responsibility in your own action, to teach you on how to discipline yourself. When people say, abolish exam, it's not relevant anymore, I feel like, huh?! Say whatever you want to say, but you have to look at the other side and think deeper before you say those things.

I had one student before. She did diploma in other college before she went to continue her degree at our institute. I still remember she said this.

When I first got here, I was surprised. Especially during exam. At my previous college, they were not strict during exam. We even cheated. Sometimes the invigilator just left us in the room without supervision. And there were times they just wrote down the answers on the white board for us to copy. 

I was like, are you serious? What's the point of having exam if you did that?

Dear students, if any of you come across this page, think before you do anything. Especially cheating during exam. We were all students once, so we know whatever tactics you try to use to cheat. We are not that stupid enough to let you risk your life to get caught for doing this. Just don't disappoint us. Just remember this, when you cheat, you are actually dragging down your own attitude as a person. Don't keep this kind of thinking, oh it's ok, this is my first time doing this, next time I will not do anymore. Just don't.

Life as an educator: Part 2

You see, there will always be ups and downs when you are in this field. As an educator, I've been through the bittersweet of teaching life. I may not have that vast experience. From my own perspective, I think I had seen enough, although it may not be that enough. It just enough for me.

Do you want to know what keeps me happy? What keeps us the educator happy?

From my own experience, it would always be words. Words like thank you, it's nice having you to teach us, we'll meet again next semester. Hahahaha, you never expect that, didn't you?

Honestly, those kind of words keep me overwhelmed, keep me feeling appreciated by my students. It even help to cure and relieve my stress.
I may not show you how much I love hearing those words, but if you look closely, you will see my little smile at the end.😊😊😊😊😊

For me, I just don't need fancy stuffs or gifts or foods from students. The words that you utter to me that I normally and always remember the most. And the most expensive gift, the most valuable gift that I expect from you is to see you excel in your academic, and also in your life after you graduate. I'll be thankful enough for I know I've done my little part in shaping you. That is what I called life.

Since it's almost the end of semester February 2018, few more days before the final exam starts, few students came and brought food. Received cupcakes the other day, thank you very much. I truly appreciate it. Received fried bee hoon yesterday too, thank you very much. I was on diet, but never mind, I ate them by the way. Hahahaha

Thank you, class!

You know it's almost end of the semester if you start to receive things from students or someone leave something on your desk...

And today, I received this. 

My students were like,"Miss, we left something on your desk."

And me,"Really?"

 Auuwwww, so sweet... 

Sweet like BTS Suga.

Well, you know how I love seeing Suga's smiles. Hahahaha

It's addictive.

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Aaaaa... Looks cute. See the icing. I just use my finger and tasted the icing. Tasted so goodddddd

I assumed it was done by FR Pâtissier (based on the sticker there).

Maybe you should give it a try. 

Based on the taste of the icing, I like it. Hahahaha

Seriously, thank you, guys, for these cupcakes. I really appreciate it. 

I wish you all the best in the coming final exam. 

Specifically to my Testing and Evaluation in Education class. Huhuhu

I guess I'll not be meeting you guys next semester since most of you will start to attend classes for your major subjects.

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Life as an educator: Part 1

There was this one student came to see me yesterday.
I asked her, "Ada apa?"
And she said,"Nothing, I was just passing by. I had class later."
I knew it, but it just that I wanted to ask her.
She looks sad. The sadness in her eyes. Am a good observer. You just cannot lied me.
So I told her,"Don't cry."
I asked her, "How's your father?" I know about her struggling between study and responsibilities as a daughter. I know her father has been warded in the hospital since last week. He is on the surgery waiting list for brain tumor removal. He was attacked by stroke too.
I feel her. Juggling between her study and her responsibilities, it's just.......*sigh*

She talked on her father, I asked her on her families. You know what, she has to travel by public bus all the way from Serian to Kuching and back to Serian whenever she has classes to attend. If it's not peak hours, it will take around one hour. If it's peak hours, it can goes up to one and a half hour. When I listened to her stories, I felt choked up. It somehow felt exhausted.... I just couldn't imagine how she managed to deal with everything.

To be honest, am not good in comforting people. Am not good in with words. My vocab is so limited. All I can offer is just to lend my ears. Am good in listening, good in keeping secrets.
All I could say to her, "take care of your father while you can. Family cannot be replaced. Maybe now you feel a little burden, but to think of it again, keep holding on and be strong so that you will not regret anything later."

I didn't want to say much to her. Am afraid coz I have a soft heart. I don't want to end up being the one who is tearing up. Hehehe

I could see tears in her eyes and she tried hardly to avoid looking at me. So I told her, "Don't cry."
And she tried to giggle and asked to leave. I just watched her leave...

May God bless you and your family. May the surgery goes smoothly. May God be with you always. There is always a blessing behind every difficulties.

Being in this industry for 6 7 years now, I saw many things, I listened to many stories...
And all those made me feel, blessed in some ways....

P/s: Listen to many, talk to few.

Sneak peek - Work

Okayh. Still hard to find time to update myself here. (lame excuse)
Let's take a peek on how my schedule looks like this semester. Currently am using this one. Still need few changes here and there since my research day is still TBD. Schedule packed.

Taaaddddaaaaaa

Work till you drop.

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Thank you

One of million reasons

Let's talk "WORSHIP"

You see, one of my students invited me to join our college Christian Fellowship gathering this noon. I told him, if God's will, then I'll show up. Meaning to say that if I want to go, then he will get to see me. But I didn't. 

I feel thankful having such a wonderful student like him. I appreciate what he did. 

It is just me. 

I don't, I mean, I don't prefer to show my faith to the people. I can't say it's a bit, in fact, it's very personal to me. When it comes to my faith, my believe, my religion, I would love to have it personal.

 Keep it as private. I don't know why. I get uncomfortable joining all these spiritual gathering or concerts.

 I get uncomfortable to let people to look or see me praying. 

It's personal for me. 

This is just me. I remember I actively joined all these church related events during my university years. But I would always get uncomfortable when the people started the praise and worship session. People would sing, and cry. And me, I would just stand there at the side or at the corner and watched but not joining during the praise and worship session. Sometimes my friends were like, come and join us here, don't just stand there and bla bla bla...
 Maybe because the way I was raised in my religion. It's very traditional. You pray and sing and praise in the church during mass. And I am like that. Am that kind of person.

In other word, am that traditional kind of person. You see, I was raised as a Catholic since I was 12 years old. I only went for baptism when I was 12 years old since my parent didn't marry in church and they divorced since I was 6 years old? I can't remember. So I had to start on my own. And I had my Confirmation when I was 15 years old. I enrolled myself to Sunday class. Seriously. I did it all alone. My mom accompanied me just one time only. And Every Sunday before my class started, I would attended the morning mass alone. Every Sunday, for almost a year. I guess, that's one of the reasons why I love my religion very much. Because I worked hard for it.

I just can't imagine myself for not being a Catholic. Am not a perfect one, But am trying my best to be a faithful one. No human is perfect and you can't say am not good in my religion. It's always the process of learning. Am still learning (self-learning) until today. My biggest weakness when it comes to my faith is am having a hard time to read bible. Seriously. The most I would read would be the Revelation part.
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I hope my students will continue to grow and have a strong fellowship. 

It's good to join especially when you are in university. You see, you have to remember when you develop trying to be a person that you always want to be, you should never give away your faith. Your faith and believe should be your pillar of strengths. It should be the one that lead your way in finding success and happiness. Seriously.

October 2016 semester (The Closing)

So, these people were the closing of my October 2016 semester. With the completion of their presentation, I cleared up everything including marking and refining the marks, then verified by the course leader and the last stage will be something like Board of Examination or Board of Directors meeting to verify everything. Then only they can go for convocation and graduate after these 3 years of studying. 

I already got their result from my course leader, but she still need to verify it during the BOE meeting.

The statistic result. Am glad they all made it through.

Cool huh? And full of pain and sweat and sweet and sour and bitter.. 

Should I go on? 

Nahhhh

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These were the photos taken during the presentation day. Got them all from our Whatsapp group. 

Last but not least, thank you for this one semester, kids.

 I wish all of you doing well in the next step, next journey you will be taking. 

All I can say is always keep your head held high, be humble, never give up, never loose hope, struggle will always leads you to a successful path. 

No matter what happen, always believe in God. He never abandon us. 

All the best!

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Presentation. 

The happy faces 1

The happy faces 2 

And thank you, Tasha, for the gift. Really appreciate it.
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P/s: Yeayyyy! I'll be on holiday starting tomorrow till 24th January 2017. Hu! Hu!

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When the students started to take selfies

And me just standing far at the back and gave you a peace.

#LifeAsAnEducator

~xoxo~

June 2016 session

Seminar in Education

Third week of 12 weeks

My students and I.....(3)

Student : Miss, can you give me an A? Or A-?

Me : Why should I give you?

Student : Alaaaaa,Miss..Can laaaaa....boleh sik?

Me : No, I don't want to give you A or A-...

Student : I do all the work, Miss..Even correction..Then you mark there A or A-..Ok???

Me : No..I'll just write the date of marking, and put there Good or Very Good only...

Student : Please please please, Miss........

Me : No..How am I suppose to give you A or even A- with this type of work?

Student : You check first, Miss..If I did wrong, I'll do the correction, then you give me A or A-...Please...

Me : (Checking)....this is correct, this is wrong, wrong, wrong...bla bla bla...

Student : I do correction, Miss.. then you check again

Me : (After a few minutes, checking again)...I give you B..(I write down B)

Student : Adoohhhh, Miss

Me : (after the B, put an arrow down, then write A-)..I cannot give you more than this and I give A- for your effort....

Student : Thank you, Miss...Hehehehe (Happy, then turn to the others,and say)..I got an A-, what did you get?Nahhhhhh.....

Me : (Luckily you have the effort to do correction..If not, jangan harap mok dapat A- ya...)

My students and I.....(2)

Students: Miss, are you married?

Me : How many times you will ask the same question? You people asked me almost everytime when I come into your class...

Students : Owhhhh, Miss..Are you married?

Me : No....Why?

Students : How old are you now, Miss?

Me : Turning 26 this year...Why?

Students : Wahhhh, so young, Miss...

Me : Yaaaa, then why?

Students : Nothing, just asking...Miss Miss, do you like a man that is younger or older than you?

Me : Heyyyy, what type of question is that???...Why do I have to tell you?

Students : Just answer, Miss.. We want to know...

Me : I'm not going to answer that question...( Dalam hati, apa ka soalan ya? Tang pelik pelik jak nemiak zaman tok)

Students : (Whispering among themselves, but I could stil hear clearly)...I think she likes a man that is a bit old than her...

Me : (Gago juak mok tanya ciri-ciri laki nak kita suka..ngek betul)...

My students and I.....(1)

Students : Miss Miss! Do you have Facebook?

Me : Yes..Why?

Students : Can we add you in Facebook?

Me : No....

Students : Please please please, Misssssssssss.....

Me : Still no...

Students : What is the name of your Facebook, Miss?

Me :...(Giving a nice smile, and not answering)...

Students : Is it Moon Zappa or something something?

Me : No.....

Students : Owhhh, Misssssss.....

Me : If you want to add my Facebook, wait until I stop teaching you or you may add me after you leave this school...Okayh?

Students : Owhhhh...Promise Miss..Don't forget us...

Me : Okayh, I will never forget you all....(Smile)....