2021

I guess it's still not to late for me to wish Happy New Year 2021 to all of you who come across this blog. Ya, am alive, living well, pretty well, I guess. And it's the month of Lent.

I haven't been here since the last time where I posted on the passing of my father. Mmmm.. Not gonna lie to you, I miss him. I miss to have conversations with him where I could talk anything to him, from politics to entertainment to relationship, literally any topics. And the feeling whenever I pass by Serian on my way back to Tebedu, I would be like, oh ok, my father is here, in Serian. The feeling that you know you have someone there... But now whenever I go back to Tebedu, the moment I pass by Serian, I would be like, things changed, father is not here anymore. But my sister and her kids are here. I just know she is here, oh I have someone here. And when I feel like to stay for an hour or two, I would call her up for a meet up. Come let's go lunch together before I head up to Tebedu. Normally I would do that when my father was around. But now not anymore. Instead of my father, my sister is here. The atmosphere is still the same, it just that the person has already change.

Naaa.. Am typing on my phone, while lying down on my bed. Feel the urge to write but like usual, I just have piles of things on my mind, in my heart, and yet I couldn't pour them all. 

Work goes well, so far. Everything goes online. Do you know how hard it is to teach calculations without seeing your students face? I feel like I've gone crazy especially when I try to explain to them step by step, one by one. 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️

You know what, the best thing when typing on the phone for a post here is that I can literally put emojis without checking them. But am not sure how they will look like on Web view.

I have piles of photos to upload, but I found new platform to post them up. Instagram! Gosh talking about Instagram, this is my second one after I deleted the first account and I don't follow people I know, I put it on private mode, and I literally scan whomever that send request to follow. You see, people know my Facebook, they know my Twitter, and perhaps this blog too, so I try to have private platform for me to roam around without people knowing me. I have a private Twitter, which I put on private mode too. That makes two private accounts, my insta and my other Twitter. Those places where I can just be free without worrying about people knowing me and talk shit about me. 😂😂😂

There are many things running on my mind right now. Since this work from home, I couldn't sleep well at night, I tend to get emotional. And I don't know who to talk to, whom to trust.. 

So I keep everything to myself. 

I went back to my hometown on the Ash Wednesday. Went back for three nights. It was my first time to celebrate back there after many years in the city. Since the church limited the number of people attending the mass, the Catechist went from home to home to distribute the ashes. I was like in the middle of cooking for breaking fast on that day when the Catechist came knocking on the door to distribute the ashes. 

Photo? 😂😂😂

Sorry for this messy look, messy hair. Definitely no edit, no filters and everything. I present to you, Moon, with naked face, with messy hair and messy look. 

Why did I look terrible here
Owh my hair
I guess that's how you supposed to look like after battling with cooking in the kitchen. 
🤣🤣🤣

OK-bye! Don't laugh, stop laughing. If you laugh at the photo, you will get diarrhoea the next day. 
😂😂😂😂😂

Today's mundane

October, 28th 2019, I didn't realize I was on Twitter for 7 years now. Wala!!! 

 

And I had this this morning. Iced coffee. Kopi peng. It tasted so good. 

I had maggi goreng too. Although it wasn't my forte, still I tried to finish it up. 

Then I took panadol actifast again today. Headache since yesterday. I took two also yesterday before went to sleep. And ended up I woke up late this morning and almost late to swipe in for work. 

2 minutes before 8.00 am. And I read the email from the course leader and tried to settle everything with my students. And that added more to my headache. 

😫😫😫😫

Bye. Need to use the loo right now. 

Bukit Mata Seafood TopSpot

We went to have dinner here last night. On the way to the restaurant, I was like am gonna take photos later on so that I have something to post on my blog. That was what I told my cousin. And ended up I didn't take any photos of the foods and even our photos also I didn't take. 😁😁😁😁😁😁😁

I only managed to take these photos before I totally forgot everything. I guess the food last night were more powerful than anything else.

The evening view from inside of the car

Favorite restaurant. No.25, Bukit Mata Seafood TopSpot.

Lemon chicken last night tasted yummy. And so the gravy butter salted egg yolk for the crab. I only aimed for the gravy, not the crab. Hahahaha

Huh this one was taken from Saturday night. 

The moment I reached the city from my hometown I directly went to the laundry. 

It was around 10pm that night. 

I sent this to the Discussion group on The Tablo Podcast Discord. 

Owh owh, I sent the photo of the restaurant too there.

Hahahaha

The Tablo Podcast is a must-listen-to podcast. 

Search for him on Spotify. I normally listen to him on that platform. 

Like seriously guys. 

Empty

Whatsapp Status

The voice

Am crying on Sunday

Half half

Am still have this thinking of deleting this blog.
Tapi sayang...
It's uncountable on how many times I changed the link and the title of this blog.
😃😃😃😃

How come I don't have that ketetapan hati...

Nahhh, nothing special. It just that I need to reset everything and start out fresh again. Saja jerrr. But then, am keeping the content the same. I saved everything before deleted the previous links, and uploaded back the content into the new page. Banyak kerja. Suka-suka.

I have work to do but couldn't find motivation to complete everything. Feeling tired. As of tomorrow, I'll be meeting final semester/final year students. I really need to prepare my brain and soul.
Reading, listening, working out the brain to guide them in doing their final thesis would require a lot of energy.

Spotify?
Owh ya. I started listening to The Table Podcast since the first episode. It's very entertaining. And not to mention, the ideas of whatever Tablo speaks on his podcast make everything seems daebak.

Is that the latest thing I've been doing? I guess so.

Group research for this year is still on-going.
Am still in the midst of finalizing our group research article from previous year for local newspaper publication. And am still in the midst of finalizing my diploma students carry marks.
One more week to go before their final exam paper.
And next week will start lectures with my Bachelor students.

Workloads seem ok, and not so ok. It's just so-so. So, ya... It's work tho...

Want to find something for lunch but the same old problem. Don't know what to have. Seems like I've tried every foods in this area.

Orchid

Anyone, can you name this flower? It's orchid, but I have no ideas on the name. 

Part 3: Orange sky

Part 2: Grey sky

Part 1: Blue Sky

Flowers thru Nova 2i

Am here

Am here... Not going anywhere.. Life is a bit busy lately, and I lost interest in writing. So, ya. I stopped for while. I have no ideas what to update.

Let's begin with work.
This semester I start to lecture diploma students. So far, it's going ok. I cannot say it's going well since the lecture is in Malay. Am having hard time getting myself to speak in Malay. But am learning. Workloads as usual. So, I just do whatever things I have to do. In fact am in the midst of updating my teaching files but I decided to spend a little time here. Heh. I had completed all my classes with bachelor's subjects. They even had their final exam last week, so they are off on semester break now. Except for my Seminar paper students. They will be having their presentation paper next week with me. And the diploma's class. I have one class with diploma students. Three weeks left before we wrap up everything. Yup, it does affect the flow of my leaves as I still have class, I cannot have my leaves like usual.

Now, laptop.
Nothing much. They changed my laptop's hard disk. So I lost everything there. Hhhmmmm. Sad but, yeah. looking at the bright side. It actually better in that way. All old memories are now erased. So, let's move on building new one.

Home Sweet Home.
With this, am proudly say the home is already 90% complete. Why 90%? Because we haven't move in yet. I cleared all payments for the wiring and electric connectivity. Done. Now all is left is the touch up stage. Hopefully by December will be moving in. Glad it ends well.

Social life.
Nahhh, still the same. I don't go out that often. I don't even go out meeting my friends. Am still living with the rule I will go out when I feel like I want to. Maybe because of age factor. And I think I spent my youth days very well, extremely well before. So i think maybe it's time for me to a homebody rather than spending hours outside of home. It drains my energy. The most would be spending times with family and relatives and my close friends.

I guess that's all for now. Need to get some work done today.

Next to you

BOY IN LUV for JUST ONE DAY

Errmmm. Yup. Hi. Again.

It's the last week of lecture weeks before exam starts this Saturday. Work? So far so good. Still have works to complete, but naaahhhh. I'm taking my time to spend here. Again. For the past few days, I was thinking of deleting this blog. But then, rasa sayang pulak.....

I just found out the two songs I kept on humming and sang for over the past years. I immediately added them into my playlist before I forget about it. And only today I realized the songs were by BTS. Gosh. Talking of not being an ARMY. I only know those songs and whenever I heard the songs before this, I just kept on singing and humming to them. And I would be like, whose songs are these... And never found the answer till two weeks ago. And only today I found out the title.

Boy in Luv and Just One Day. I only remember the song keep on saying say what you want say what you want and the other one, the music, the rhythm is just stucked in my brain for the past years. So whenever the song popped out, I humming to it smoothly. 😆😆😆😆😆

I went to this particular shop about two weeks ago, before Raya I think, they played both songs. So while I was looking for things to buy, I just kept on humming and singing along to the songs. And I was like whose songs are these.

And yesterday I watched this YouTube on BTS history, these two songs popped out, and I was like, owh, those songs! After all these years... After many many years humming to the songs...
Only yesterday I found out about it. 😌😌😌😌😌 When I first listened to Fire and Blood Sweat Tears, felt like I've heard these guys before. It was so good how music can bring you back to past memories... No wonder they sound familiar.

You know it's good if you know the songs but you never know the singer. Why I said this? Because you will keep on coming back to listen to the songs. And without watching the mv, you can actually enjoy more on the songs. Seriously. That's how I remember those two songs. Never watch the mv, never care who sing the songs. So whenever I heard the songs been played, automatically I humming and sing along to it. Same goes to whatever songs that I keep on repeat and listen to. I just prefer to listen without watching the mv.

OMG. Wats this? Talking on BTS. Hahahaha. Is this post dedicated to them? Nahhhhh. Just something I want to type on. If there should be any ARMYs come across this page, you guys stan the best group. Appreciate the group and keep on supporting them. And I really love how they use their fame and influence for doing project with UNICEF. It's totally a great move that every influential people should follow.

So these two will be on repeat. Hahahaha

Last week + end

Can I just sum up everything that happened last week and during weekend?

Been here after a long long time... How long? Years, I think. Went out for lunch with my colleagues last Friday to this place. The foods still the same. I was looking for chilled New York Cheese Cake, but they didn't have it on the menu. I guess, they ousted it already. I saw something like chocolate lava, but am not a big fan of chocolate. So, I passed. I had Cheesy Chicken Chop (grilled, I think). Didn't take any photos since yaaaa, I don't take photos that much. Only this. My vanilla milkshake. Quite good.

Big Elephant Cafe & Bistro

These books, I got them last Friday too. The students here held an event. Kids Crew carnival? Something like that. I just didn't remember. They sold secondhand books too. RM13 for both. Quite cheap. Besides they are still in good condition too. So I got these two. I already start on the Reading Lolita In Tehran last Sunday. Gonna keep them as am about to be busy this week till I clear everything on scoring my students' assignments. I have loads to complete.
So, dear books, please wait for me.
I'll come back to you once am done doing my formal work.

And this was taken when we were on our way to fetch my nephews at Pasir Pandak. I have few on my phone but I only upload one here. I uploaded one on my Twitter. I guess my Twitter always be the first one for me to update anything. Freak. Hahahaha. I just cannot get myself off my Twitter.

The Lamppost

It wasn't the lamppost that caught my attention. It was the blue sky. Just like what I have told before, I don't have the skill in capturing good photos. The one that I saved in my memory, my brain is greater than this. The color of the sky on that day was calming. The blue sky looked clear. The sun shine warmly. It felt warm and cool at the same time. And the cloud looked like a bunch of cotton. Soft cotton. They looked like cotton candy. 

With the clear blue sky, the warmness of the sunshine, the cotton candy clouds, how does it looks like if we add a soft pink color there? Or a light soft peach color to it? Can you imagine it?

It would look beautiful. It would look stunning.....

Are you smiling now while imagining all those?

Great.

Have a warm day to you. 

My Discover Weekly

If you want to feel what I feel today, listen to these.