The voice

Tiny cut but it stings

I went to my cousin's home today after work. Walked out of my car while I was on the phone with my aunt and uncle. Walking up the stairs when suddenly I tripped over my feet and uuuurrgghhh!!!

I screamed. 😱😱😱😱😱

Terasa bodohnya kat situ. 💁‍♀️💁‍♀️💁‍♀️💁‍♀️

I literally screamed. In my everyday, it would be almost impossible to hear me scream. But today, at that very stairs, I screamed. Gosshhhh

I got up quickly although I couldn't balancing myself. My other hand still tightly holding onto my phone. 

So the fcuk me. Luckily no one was there. 

🙄🙄🙄🙄

I got a small cut on my left knee prior to that incident. I almost cried but since I was on the phone, I tahan myself. I quickly ended my phone call with my aunt and uncle. 

Walking slowly upstairs.. It felt hurt.. And it's hurting me now. It gets painful when I was taking my bath just now. Seriously painful when the cut got direct contact with water. It stings. It was just a small cut but it does hurt me a lot. 

P/s: Pray for my grandpa who is hospitalised for almost a week now. He is still unconscious. 

Happy born day, MZ!

Dear Moon,

(Sorry for using this photo. I know you will not like it. But I want to make sure you have an original photo today without any editing. Hahahaha!)

Happy 32nd birthday to you!
And congratulation for you have made it to this year. I know things were rough for you back then. And it still seems rough too this year. When you keep on telling that you can't live but you can't die either make me worried. It felt broken inside. That's why I feel thankful for you have made it this far. Be strong. Please be grateful for you are still beautifully breathing here.
Always remind yourself to give your best. May the journey you taken now leads you to the place you are always dreaming of.
Be humble all the time.
Remind yourself no matter how hard your life right now, there are people out there who are struggling everyday in order to survive.
Take care of your health since you are in your three series now. Eat well, and please go for exercise too. Perhaps jogging. I know you feel somewhat disappointed when you did the weighing thing last weekend. Hahahaha. So ya, eat well, sleep well, live a healthy life.
Fulfill your commitment toward your job. You may have your own dream (owning a restaurant). Giving this is what you are trained for, I hope you give your best in the field you are involved right now. And at the same time, I hope you will find a way to make your dream come true. Everything you want to do, and everything that you have planned before, if God's will it, it will happen eventually.
I guess that's all I could penned down for you. It was a mess, but yeah, sincerely from me too.
I wish you well in your life.

Happy birthday once again, Moon.

~xoxo~
Dear Self.

Untitled 3

Didn't I tell you
To turn around and leave
To never look back and pretend we have never met
It may look sad but that's what you get
When you tear and let everything fell into pieces.

Untitled 2

Thousands words mean nothing
Floating in the air
Like rhythm accidentally composed
Without intention
Without decision

Untitled 1

It's raining
It's cold
Its sends shiver to my bones
Straight into my soul

Next to you

My Discover Weekly

If you want to feel what I feel today, listen to these.

Smile

Am working on my scoring now. But keep on stopping. Thought to type something. And yes, like usual, I don't really have things to type. They just accumulate inside my chest but they just don't want to show. They don't want to come out.

I post frequently on my Twitter. Not here, not on my Facebook. Am on Spotify too now.
My Discover Weekly for this week is just superb.
Seriously.

The songs are all *thumbs up*
They made me smile, can just feel like am smiling. Gosh. After such quite sometimes. It feels warm to smile. I guess I have a reason to smile now. I almost forgot the way to smile. Those songs make me smile today. Don't know why.

Have a blessed day to whomever cross this page! May you never forget the way to smile.

Piece of Peace

7 days since am on leave..
This is all I can update now. Precious photo of myself. It's rare since I hate taking photo.
🙄🙄🙄

Ok. Bye. It's 3.44am now. Need to zzzzzz

Wandering

Lost

Ambiguous

I have something to write..
It does not want to move...
Feeling stuck.
Ambiguous.

It fits well.

How could you be so selfish

How could you be so selfish
10 years has gone since you left the world
10 years has passed but still no difference to me
Still missing you like I always do

How could you be so selfish
When your "This is our last time talking to each other"
Keeps on haunting me
Lingering in my memory

The word if only
If only we just went with what we believed in
If only...
Will things be different now?

The path we chose led to forever missing you
marks only regrets in me
Trying to hide and keeping it all alone
You know, it hurts my heart more than anyone would know

How could you be so selfish
Letting me go with a pure goodbye
Without giving me the chance to say a proper one
How could you be so selfish

~In loving memory, W.J~

Sadly

Wandering

Comes to an end

End of a new beginning

Will you be there

Waiting

Sadly

~~Appaz Noom~~
~~17th August 2016~~

Like real behind me

Never ever thought it could be real

When I saw you

I know you were right there

Behind me

Tried not to turn around

When someone told me not to turn

Freeze frozen

Wasn't moving at all

Who could it be

Behind me

Wondering, heart pounding

Still standing without turning around

Could it be you

Heart telling me, forcing me

So I turned around

And I found you

I saw you I saw you

Blood rushed to my head

Gave you a sincere wide smile

Voices screaming in my head

I tried to hide

It screamed silently excitedly

You you you you

 I knew it must be you

Standing right behind me

And to make thing worst

You were smiling back at me

The sweetest smile I ever see

And to make thing worst

That were all in my dream

In my dream

~~Appaz Noom~~

~~Saturday~~

~~4.11pm~~

Do you read me now?

This feeling is so strong

So far.. Yet feeling so close...

I don't know how to tell

But I know it's inside of me

Trying to reach you, but it seems blurry

Imagination has it all to be near to you

How could I tell

Do you read me now?

I know you don't

Impossible to make it happen

But hope has it all

What if one day we passing by each other

What if one day we walking side by side as a stranger 

In a crowded place, eyes to eyes

Days pass us everyday

We are in different places, not knowing one another

You feel like you are missing something

And am feeling like am missing you

Do you read me now?

I know you don't

If God says I will make it happens,

Deep in my heart,

I hope you are feeling the same way as I am

When you read me... Here.

~~Appaz Noom~~
~~Saturday~~
~~6th/02/2016~~

Hurt me enough.. Therefore, I remain silent... As always.

Many stories to tell...

Most stories built me up, few just crushed me down, little buried myself away...

And am keeping them to myself...

Hard to keep.. Even harder to tell...

How I wish to clear it all...

How I really wish.. But I just could not do it at all...

They say, things are better left unsaid... 

To mention just a little is hurtful enough....

Hurt me enough...

Therefore, I remain silent...

As always.

~ Appaz Noom ~

~ Nov 11th 2015 ~

Million things

Million things running in and out of my brain. I feel heavy heart because of it...
Million things running in and out of my brain. And it makes me lost in my own thinking. Not knowing the exact things that I am thinking...
Million things running in and out of my brain. I am frozen in my own space. Not knowing what to do and how to say it out loud...
Million things running in and out of my brain. I feel hopeless.
Million things running in and out of my brain. I just do not know where to go...
Million things running in and out of my brain. If only you feel what I feel right now...
Million things running in and out of my brain. If only..........................

-Appaz Noom-
Thursday, October 15th, 2015

What if...

What if freedom never really exist....
What if peace is just a face to cover and gain power...
What if humanity is only done in the name of fame...
What if Nelson Mandela is still alive and speak on unity...
And John Lennon is still singing on his rendition on peacefulness.. Imagine.
What if persecution could be prevented through tolerant and respecting one another...
What if.........

~Appaz Noom~