Just finished attending Good Friday mass at Carmelite Chapel. Now waiting for my cousin to fetch me. Feeling light after the mass. Got to do the veneration of the cross too. Really thank you, God, for giving me this time.
Called my mom too few seconds ago. The celebration of Paschal at our village will be fantastic. They already start doing preparation for today till Sunday. I haven't celebrate Holy Triduum at my village for quite some time. Years, I guess, since am based in this city. Maybe next year or years to come. Hopefully am still breathing by the time. Hehehe
This year too celebrated with my cousin, Aci, and her family. This is the second year, I guess, since I attend at Carmelite. Before this I went to Cathedral. But then, I tried to make my Good Friday more personal, hence I found my place here at Carmelite. It's more to me time. Something like that.
The weather behaves well today. Hopefully it will be sunny and calm for the rest two days till Sunday.
Anyway, have a blessed Good Friday to those who celebrate.
Maundy Thursday & Holy Triduum
Have a blessed Maundy Thursday!
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Aaaaa.... Feeling overwhelmed. And in the same time feeling sad for it almost comes to an end... And feeling empty.....
Nonetheless, feeling grateful for being able to breath the Holy Triduum airs this year.
Thank you, Lord, for keeping me alive.
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Have a blessed Holy Week (2018), everyone!
Lent almost comes to end..
Good Friday falls on this Friday, March 30th, 2018..
Me? Am feeling sad. I didn't do much this year. Feel like I miss the opportunity to fulfill my duties as a Catholic. Seriously.
Crisis.
That's what I called it.
Am just an ordinary human. You can't expect me to be devoted all the time.
There are times where I just don't have faith, I don't believe in anything. Not even in God.
There are times where I really holding onto my faith.
Feeling like a part time Catholic. That's the exact word to describe me and my faith.
It's like a roller coaster ride.
I have no ideas why people keep on saying am faithful to my faith. I don't know the "faithful" is referring to what exactly. Even I don't consider myself as one. I know myself very well.
But I know one thing for sure.
I'm really grateful for what I am today. I always told myself, God loves me too much that He keeps on giving me challenges to test me. Sometimes I failed, and there were times I made through it all.
As for this year's Lent...........*sigh*
I don't know. You know the purposes of Lent? Go for confessions, doing charities or alms giving, fasting, praying and so on.. So just lets say I only fulfilled maybe one or two of the purposes. You know it was like, before this, I went all out and then suddenly as times passing by, I went down to almost zero. It's kinda sad... Am feeling sad for myself.
Anyway, it's Wednesday. It's Holy Wednesday (Spy Wednesday) today.
It was on this day that Judas betrayed Jesus. Jesus got betrayed, just for that 30 silver pieces..
How materials could turn one's to start a betrayal upon someone else....
Isn't it sad?
What will you give me if I betray Him to you?
May this be a lesson to us, humans, too.
And the number 4 always makes my tears rolling down on my face.
"Eli, Eli, lama sabachthani?"
Whenever they sing this part during Psalm, I really try hard not to sob.
Have a blessed Holy Week, everyone.
Life as an educator: Part 1
There was this one student came to see me yesterday.
I asked her, "Ada apa?"
And she said,"Nothing, I was just passing by. I had class later."
I knew it, but it just that I wanted to ask her.
She looks sad. The sadness in her eyes. Am a good observer. You just cannot lied me.
So I told her,"Don't cry."
I asked her, "How's your father?" I know about her struggling between study and responsibilities as a daughter. I know her father has been warded in the hospital since last week. He is on the surgery waiting list for brain tumor removal. He was attacked by stroke too.
I feel her. Juggling between her study and her responsibilities, it's just.......*sigh*
She talked on her father, I asked her on her families. You know what, she has to travel by public bus all the way from Serian to Kuching and back to Serian whenever she has classes to attend. If it's not peak hours, it will take around one hour. If it's peak hours, it can goes up to one and a half hour. When I listened to her stories, I felt choked up. It somehow felt exhausted.... I just couldn't imagine how she managed to deal with everything.
To be honest, am not good in comforting people. Am not good in with words. My vocab is so limited. All I can offer is just to lend my ears. Am good in listening, good in keeping secrets.
All I could say to her, "take care of your father while you can. Family cannot be replaced. Maybe now you feel a little burden, but to think of it again, keep holding on and be strong so that you will not regret anything later."
I didn't want to say much to her. Am afraid coz I have a soft heart. I don't want to end up being the one who is tearing up. Hehehe
I could see tears in her eyes and she tried hardly to avoid looking at me. So I told her, "Don't cry."
And she tried to giggle and asked to leave. I just watched her leave...
May God bless you and your family. May the surgery goes smoothly. May God be with you always. There is always a blessing behind every difficulties.
Being in this industry for 6 7 years now, I saw many things, I listened to many stories...
And all those made me feel, blessed in some ways....
P/s: Listen to many, talk to few.
I asked her, "Ada apa?"
And she said,"Nothing, I was just passing by. I had class later."
I knew it, but it just that I wanted to ask her.
She looks sad. The sadness in her eyes. Am a good observer. You just cannot lied me.
So I told her,"Don't cry."
I asked her, "How's your father?" I know about her struggling between study and responsibilities as a daughter. I know her father has been warded in the hospital since last week. He is on the surgery waiting list for brain tumor removal. He was attacked by stroke too.
I feel her. Juggling between her study and her responsibilities, it's just.......*sigh*
She talked on her father, I asked her on her families. You know what, she has to travel by public bus all the way from Serian to Kuching and back to Serian whenever she has classes to attend. If it's not peak hours, it will take around one hour. If it's peak hours, it can goes up to one and a half hour. When I listened to her stories, I felt choked up. It somehow felt exhausted.... I just couldn't imagine how she managed to deal with everything.
To be honest, am not good in comforting people. Am not good in with words. My vocab is so limited. All I can offer is just to lend my ears. Am good in listening, good in keeping secrets.
All I could say to her, "take care of your father while you can. Family cannot be replaced. Maybe now you feel a little burden, but to think of it again, keep holding on and be strong so that you will not regret anything later."
I didn't want to say much to her. Am afraid coz I have a soft heart. I don't want to end up being the one who is tearing up. Hehehe
I could see tears in her eyes and she tried hardly to avoid looking at me. So I told her, "Don't cry."
And she tried to giggle and asked to leave. I just watched her leave...
May God bless you and your family. May the surgery goes smoothly. May God be with you always. There is always a blessing behind every difficulties.
Being in this industry for 6 7 years now, I saw many things, I listened to many stories...
And all those made me feel, blessed in some ways....
P/s: Listen to many, talk to few.
Migraine
Not a good kick start for this week.. Got attacked with migraine since yesterday.
Feeling hopeless.
Feeling pain.
I thought it would be ok today, but still the pain won't fade away... I didn't even sleep last night because of the pain. It was just too painful....
I just hope it doesn't get worse after today. I don't think I can't bear it. I just hope that I don't start to vomit..
I don't know what triggered the migraine this time. Maybe because of stress or I didn't get enough rest. I really keep myself well because I want to avoid it. I know the pain. It has been with me since I was 12 years old. I think it got worse for the past few years....
Feeling hopeless.
Feeling pain.
I thought it would be ok today, but still the pain won't fade away... I didn't even sleep last night because of the pain. It was just too painful....
I just hope it doesn't get worse after today. I don't think I can't bear it. I just hope that I don't start to vomit..
I don't know what triggered the migraine this time. Maybe because of stress or I didn't get enough rest. I really keep myself well because I want to avoid it. I know the pain. It has been with me since I was 12 years old. I think it got worse for the past few years....
And I've been sniffing on this since the past few minutes
These words
The most valuable words I keep. Am gonna pass them...
Hopefully they can also inspire and motivate you, just like how they did to me. Of all three, I treasure the one in purple the most.
It's like telling you to pause a little to appreciate things surround you.
It's telling you are just an ordinary human. You deserve to have your own time. You deserve to rest whenever you need to rest, cry whenever you need to cry, smile whenever you feel good, laugh whenever you feel like one.
It's telling you to not loosing hope, and to have faith, to believe in whatever you are doing, in whatever you feel.
The words soothe me inside....
😇😇😇😇😇😇
Last Sunday
Raspberries
*update*
(I was watching 2 Days & 1 Night, and I found out that the plant below wasn't raspberries.
they were mulberries.)
According to the owner.
Sweet at the beginning, sour at the end.
Photos taken using my own phone. Huahuahua
Close up
Went to dinner. Early dinner. At After Four, Satok. Love this place very much. Their foods are amazing.
I had these. Double Egg Porridge and Sarsi syrup
Cousin.
And I was the shadow.
That's for today.
Pomade - Drug Restaurant
I ordered the album on the 26th February.
I tracked the delivery. It was delivered.
OMG. Will update this again once I get the package.
Just Whatsapp my auntie. She confirmed the package is already at home, signed by my uncle.
OMG. I really wanted to have it, and now I really have one.
Oh gosh. Am nervous. I can't wait to unwrap the package.
I tracked the delivery. It was delivered.
OMG. Will update this again once I get the package.
Just Whatsapp my auntie. She confirmed the package is already at home, signed by my uncle.
OMG. I really wanted to have it, and now I really have one.
Oh gosh. Am nervous. I can't wait to unwrap the package.
It's here. Finally. This is totally a self-reward thing for me. Huhuhuhu
Ambiguous
I have something to write..
It does not want to move...
Feeling stuck.
Ambiguous.
It fits well.
It does not want to move...
Feeling stuck.
Ambiguous.
It fits well.
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