Still clumsy.. Shakin' Stevens

When you browse on the tag that I have here on my page, you will notice one tag with the name Ordinary Kitchen. Yesszerrrr. I don't post any cooking or foods lately. I didn't eat outside much nowadays. And yeszerrr, I don't cook lately since am a bit busy with works and yeahhh, lazy. OMG!! 

Our college final examination for this semester will start next week. For about two weeks.  I guess after the exams ends, am planning to spend my leaves in the kitchen. And maybe go for a short getaway. Not that far, just around the city. 

The weather is so hot today. It's not sunny, it's hot. Gotta to leave now. 

Nak jemur pakaian lok. Kedung hari tok gik panas. Sikda gik pakaian nak dipakey. Seminggu sik betesah baju.

I leave you with a song. My favorite. Shake your hips. You know your hips never lie.

😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂

(Sources from YouTube)

Feelings got no grammar

It was meant to be uploaded here, but I posted it first on my Facebook, then deleted it today. Muahahaha. It was a teaser. Seriously I don't feel comfortable to post anything on my Facebook. Here, goshhh. It's like am truly belong to this place. All the things I did should belong in here too. In fact, am opening the door of my everyday to the public, and this is totally dangerous if you consider on the safety and security. Maybe because I have no idea who are the people that will drop by here whereas on my Facebook, most of them are the people whom I know...

Yup, feelings got no grammar. It does have vocab, in fact it fulls of vocab. But still it doesn't understand English or any other languages.
See, I write not-so-good English. And I don't care as long as am satisfied. I write for me, not for you.

Happy blessed Sunday!

P/s: I want to see Anuar Zain later on but I can't go there. Huhuhuhuhu.. Kembalilahhhhhhh kepadakuuuuuu... episod episod dukaaaaaaa biarrrr berlaluuuuuuuu 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

Is this love... or a punishment?

The moment I knew the news, I felt like I was broken into pieces.

It made me like what did we do wrong when we raised you up since you guys were still kids?
What had we done wrong along the way?
Were there any lacking? The thing is affecting all of us. The family members, and not to say the people who knows our family. They would not point only to your fault, but indirectly towards us too.

Maybe it was a trapped set up by those people, in the same time, we could not denied it was your fault too. I hope this will be a lesson to you. We cannot turn the time back. Just swallow everything and move on.

And of course as a sister, it was heart-breaking to see the little one did a mistake like this. A mistake in the first place the little brother should not do. My feeling? I have mixed one. The anger, the sadness, the disappointment, they are all there. It already happen, what more can I say.. The damaged is there.
And of course I always hope for the best from each one of them. 

Eventually people will get tired of all these things and shut their mouth up and stop talking about it.

Hyukoh 23

I was waiting for two things this month. First was Hyukoh 23 album. Second it was K.A.R.D third project. I mean, their single before they debut. 

I already watch Rumor yesterday. It was awesome. Super awesome? Yeahhh. Loving this group since their music style is so much different than the other existing groups. Don't Recall hidden version was totally superb too. 

Talking on Band Hyukoh, I accidentally discovered them on Mudo. Because of the special episode on music festival. I know, I just couldn't kept my ears away from the word music. When I read the program was doing the music festival episode thing, straight away I watched them. It's good that I look at music style rather than focusing on good-looking people who sings. Muahahaha (But honestly, you cannot resist those members in the band, they have their own charms and styles. With strong personalities, of course). 

Seriously, they are making their own way with their music style. It's just like you are listening to those British band mixing with Japanese rock band style with this Chinese influences, which really made them to stand out among the rest. Which is splendid. And now they are out with their new album, 23. I listened to it last night. The songs were awesome, the music got strong. 

(Did I use too much awesome-ness here? Please bear with it.)  

The question now is how am I going to get the album? I mean the real album, not the digital one. I need to figure this out. 

P/s: 1. Now I realized that Tablo is such a genius. He has clean English when he speaks and his writing, totally in a very high-standard, which is rare among any other artists. I wonder his Blo notes, you know, the book written by him. Do they publish English version for it?  

2. I hope Band Hyukoh will produce more English songs in the future.

Easter 2017

Happy belated Easter, people!!!! He is risen indeed Alleluia!💗💗💗💗😁😁😁😁

Yup, I know. Am late sending this wish. Hahaha. Aiyo. Got loads of works to be completed before this Wednesday. Huhuhu

I went to Carmelite Chapel for Good Friday. its always been my place for my every year of Good Friday. Feel comfortable there. Can I continue this later, or tomorrow or when I have free time? Quite busy now. I can't even think of what to type and spell next.

Lent is over... 2017

Honestly, I feel sad. I always feel this on the last day of Lent. Thinking that I had not done much, still lacking in many ways, not making use of my Lent, it's just sadden me. Because I never know whether I have the chance to celebrate it or not in the coming years. 

Paschal Triduum starts today. I think last year I didn't celebrate Holy Thursday. I guess this year too the same. Hopefully this Friday, I can make it to church for service prayer. Last day of fasting and abstinence tomorrow. This year I think i did well on fasting and abstinence. Without missing any of the Fridays. 

It really feels like something is going to leave you.. For me, the season of Lent is my most closest time with God. Am glad I don't cry a lot this year. Seriously. Hehehe. Growing stronger, fixing my heart, fixing my mind, closing few scars. 

Whomever read this or come across into this blog, I wish you to be stronger day-by-day. You may fall on your knees and cry as much as you want, but remember to stand tall once again. Life cannot ends in a misery. 

Just dance along the way, appreciate whatever comes in your ways and be grateful always. I hope you will be able to go through the rain and sunny days of your life. 

Have a blessed Triduum, people!

Sobbing deep down

I was browsing my Fb during break time this morning. And I found this on my news feed. It touched deep down of my heart. The bottom of my heart. During my break down few years ago, I prayed a lot. I asked a lot. And I crossed few from my list since I got them. I know, God is so good to me. 

But I guess, I took things for granted. 

Lumrah manusia. Bila dah dapat, lalai. 

The same goes to me. 

I remember during those turbulence of my life, that was in 2011? I wrote a lot of things on my diary. I still have it but I couldn't remember where I put it. And I remember I wrote down a list of things that I would like to have. A job, a car, a house and money. I remember those. I had them written down on my diary.

 I guess a prayer of someone with a broken heart is very loud. 

I was in that kind of state during those days. 

By the end of 2011, I got a job, better than previous. Money, of course. The next one, a car. After three months on the job, I got my first car. Gosh. I know. And now still on-going is a house. Expected to be completed by the end of this year. Me and mom, we currently build one. 

When I saw the photo today, it forced me to reflect back at all those moments. And I feel so.. Thank you, Lord. 

 Got it from Facebook page https://www.facebook.com/powerofpositivity/

 

P/s: Now, do you get me? Do you feel what I feel?

End of previous week

Let me recall.
If possible I don't want too. Many things happened.

Let's begin with me. Like always, am still battling with myself. Battling with my own thinking. Am struggling with it. Things keep on running in and out of my mind. I know. Leave it alone. Lent isn't going well for me this year. Am not gonna talk about it. Just let me keep it to myself. I hope and wish and pray for everything to go well. I didn't and do much this season.

Yesterday I went to sunset mass. And for the first time I just felt like I was alone. This "something is missing" feeling was strong enough to make me feel so alone. In the church, during mass.

Empty is the right word. The exact word. I've never felt so empty yesterday. The more I get to know myself, the more it makes me feel I've missed many things in my life..
I wish to end my Lent well this year despite all the struggling. Fighting with my own soul is quite tiring.

My uncle's youngest sister passed away last Saturday. May Usu rest in peace. May her soul be departed with the faithful ones. There'll be no more laksa Sarawak during Hari Raya...😢😢😢😢

And Hairol's dad too passed away yesterday. I hope he didn't have any regrets as he got the chance to take care of his dad since the last one month after his dad fell sick. Am sure his dad felt joy with all those cares given by Hairol. May his dad rest in peace and departed with the faithful ones.

I know Lent is a season where there are many unexpected things happen. All I can say is be strong and always have faith in God. His reason for all these things to happen is simply to test us. Stay strong, everyone!