Critical Day~~ November 27, 2013

I have decided to not attend the interview tomorrow. It's my final decision. For whatever reasons, I trust in God. Perhaps there will be something else for me, and the time is not here yet. So, I put all my confident into His hand. He shall know what to do with my life. he will guide, show and bring me to my destiny. And I shall not worry and let Him do His work.

Maybe the job is meant for someone else who deserve it. All the best to all candidates tomorrow.

Good news once again.. One step closer, yet so far...

PELUANG KERJAYA BERSAMA MAJLIS AMANAH RAKYAT

 Sukacita dimaklumkan bahawa tuan/puan dipelawa mengikuti sesi “MARA Assessment Centre (MAC)” iaitu sesi pemilihan dan temuduga ke jawatan “Pegawai Perkhidmatan Pendidikan Siswazah Gred DG41  seperti makluman berikut :-

TARIKH   :	Seperti di lampiran  ( rujuk no. ID di lampiran c. Senarai Nama)
MASA     :	7.00 pagi
TEMPAT :	IKM Kuching, Jalan Kemahiran, Off Jalan Sultan Tengah, Peti Surat 3271, 93764 Kuching, Sarawak,  Tel  : 082-441149 / 441113

               

PERHATIAN :

Sila bawa DOKUMEN ASAL dan satu salinan fotokopi seperti berikut :-

Ø  Resume yang lengkap

Ø  Kad Pengenalan

Ø  Kelulusan Sijil Pelajaran Malaysia  (SPM)

Ø  Kelulusan Diploma Perguruan/Pendidikan dan Transkrip (jika ada)

Ø  Kelulusan Ijazah Sarjana Muda dan Transkrip

Ø  Dua (2) keping Gambar Berukuran Passport

Ø  Cetak & Lengkapkan Borang (disertakan dalam lampiran)

                                                                    i.                        Employment Application – 1 salinan

                                                                  ii.                        Micro Teaching Form – 2 salinan

                                                                iii.                        Interview Form – 3 salinan

Another interview. My turn will be on the 28th November 2013. I don't know what to say. It seems so close, yet still far... Thank you, God, for this blessing. It showed me that You will always have something for Your children. :)

Trying hard...

I was and surprisingly still trying to solve this question.

2, 4, 16, 256,...... Find the recursion formula. Still could not find the answer.

I guess my brain does not want to work hard today. Exceed the limit perhaps... And I get easily annoyed and irritated by certain noise in the office today. Maybe because I just don't like my Wednesday. In fact, my Wednesdays. That means, for this whole semester, I just despise my Wednesdays.

What a bad day for my brain to function. I just can't wait for the clock to strike at 5pm. Go home, but later I still have to attend my basic sign language course.

You can call me names, I don't mind

I feel like crying today. Aaarrrggggghhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!! I just don't like that subject.. Seriously hate the subject. You know, the feeling inside when you try to teach something that you really hate?? Damn it.

 

Taken this one from google image to suit my feeling today. I feel very demotivated... :'(

I don't like it....

when someone telling to do something at the very last minute. Misal kata, I have something else to do, then apa jadi? Haiyaaaaa.... Menambah kerja yang sememangnya berlambak lambak.

It is always Monday~~~

It's Monday.. Thought to drop by here for a while... I missed two classes of my Basic sign Language last week.  And this week, I hope that I can catch up with the lessons I've missed... I know I'm feeling determine to complete the basic course. For me, it's important for self-development and also for making it easier to communicate with the deaf people. have you ever imagine that one day you will be living in their silent world?? Besides the class, I also have to do my self-study by using the free lesson from the American Sign Language taught by Dr.Bill. Trying to open the video, but the link to YouTube seemed to have this server-down. Seriously I don't really know the terms used in this IT world. Far beyond my expectations.

I don't know why I don't like today. Work is messy, classes were dull (for me laaa....) There's something that bothering me which I still couldn't figure why... Goshhhh... seriously I don't know what is inside my heart. It's totally undefined.

Keep doing things....

that I don't like at all. Especially Mathematics. I know, it was a mistake that I could not reverse or undo anymore. That's why we called what past, is past. Fucked off, I should not have made decision because of someone. Now I realized most of the decisions I made before were based on other people. Meaning to say, I put others as my priorities instead of putting myself as the number one in the list. Totally wasted my time. But then, when I come to think about it, God has plans for which I still can't see what are those plans...

17th October 1986 ~ 17th October 2013

Thank you, God, for allowing me to stay on earth for 27 years... It's my birthdayyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 1st best gift of the day was from my friend, Sylvez. He sang me a birthday song and BBM it to me.. Hahahahaha!!! Could not help myself from giggling and smiling... Could not believe he would do that. Hahahahaha!!!! 

Then my colleagues sang the birthday song and gave a dinner handbag (I guess so..) as a present. Nice! 

And owwwwhhhh sweetttttttttttttttttttttttttt (This one I cannot revealed it here.. Just in case that person following my blog).. It was sweet, tho.... Hehehehehe :)

And after this will go to steamboat D11. My cousin will treat me lorrrrrrr... :)

Then go and meet my mother... Awwwww, I love my mother very much. Keep her safe in Your arms, dear Lord. Thank you.

Thank you, God for all the blessings! Love You!!!

Kuching - Miri - Kuching (11th Oct - 15th Oct 2013)

Not going to type anything today. So here are the pictures that we took which I downloaded from my Fb and also my cousin's fb.. Muahahahahaha! LoL

Day 1

The bride (using black scarf)

 

"Cousin"hood

In the process

The outcome. Daebak!

Day 2

The big-day! Congratulations! 

 

Adrienn Enyai's baby.. Name: Ayden Jack will be 4 months old this coming 20th October 2013

Day 3

Playground time @ Jambatan Gantung Taman Awam, Miri

My nephews: "Cousin"hood

Interframe is a must for me & cuzzy :)

Ma blog.. whatever

Last day 

(It was Hari Raya Aidiladha. And we went back to Kuching @ 10am, reached home @ 12am)

It does happens all the time when we tried to get everyone fit into the frame. :)

Perfectly captured by brother-in-law.. He didn't manage to get into this frame tho....

Goodbye, Miri! Till we meet again next time. I managed to meet & have breakfast with Valentine on that morning, but didn't take any pictures... Sad.. :(

Bad? Or just an unlucky day...

I have this red spots on my skin, and I'm not sure whether I have allergic to something. It's been 2 weeks already.. And yesterday I started to have these flu, cough and headache... and not forgotten running nose... Owwwhhhhhh, please catch my nose.Its running away from meeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!! Hahahahahahaha!!!

And last night, I kept on vomiting and had to bear with nausea.. I couldn't even eat. Tried to eat, then vomit.. took medicine, vomit.. then I decided to go to sleep with empty stomach.. Too much for me to take. And dear weather, be good to me too.. 

But seriously, I never have this type of condition before. So, before everything turn worst, I decide today I will go to clinic for check-up. My foster sister told me to request for a blood test to check whether I have allergy that I never noticed before. And I just Google on to find what is "blood test". And now I decided not to do it.

Eeeeeeeeeeee..... Needle, big needle... I just hate it. So, hopefully the doctor will just give me an injection for those red spots on my skin and also some medicine. I guess, that will be enough for me. And and and, later around 5pm or 6pm will be driving to Miri.. If you have no idea where is Miri located, you may check it on the map. Google it..

And one of my cousin told me, "Jangan-jangan you kenak polah orang kannnn.." (apa punya statement) Translated: She said, maybe someone put a curse on you, don't you think so? Something like that lahh... Hehehehe. As for me, it does make shaken me for few minutes. But then, God is great. I'm sure He will not let me suffer for that long time.

Dear health, please be good to me. I cannot afford to fall sick like this. Last night I truly suffered because of you. Maybe it was my fault for not taking care of you. But I promise you, from now on, I'll try my best to take care of you.

Last Saturday.... 5th October 2013.. Match day!

Alright. That was my second time watching football at the stadium. Hah!! It was spectacular! Awesome! Superb! The game was great! And Sarawak won 3-1 over Sime Darby! Serve you right!

The next game in house will be on the 26th October 2013. Hopefully they will make it to final. And the rest, shut you f***king mouth shut! Stop spreading rumors that the was already planned. 

1st day in the month of October.. The month of Rosary

I had "sambal goreng petai" again yesterday.. It was too good until you couldn't resist it. :)

I just want to wish everyone especially Catholics a very blessed journey in the month of Rosary! :)

As for me, I will try and must try to have that one month fill with rosary prayer. I may not be that good in prayer, but I need to learn and to perform it as it is one of my responsibilities as a Catholic. I didn't get to do it before because I don't see the importance of doing so. Now I realize that I just don't want to be astray from God. :)

Have a great October month, people! God bless always.

September 2013, 30th

A-aaaaaa... Waiting patiently for the person who responsible to key in the mark for my students. I have one more class today at 2pm until 4pm.

And later at 7.30pm, I'll start my Sign Language Class. Should start last week, but due to certain things, I have to postpone till this week. And and and... I just don't know what to do because it's Monday.. (lame excuse).. By the way, my state Sarawak draw in the match with Sime Darby last Saturday. Ya ya ya, I did watch the match on tv.. At the end of this week, will try to get ticket to watch the game at stadium. They play at home this week. Hopefully they will win the match. Cross-finger. They really got the Perak team out from the list. And and and..... They suspected it was already plan by bookie. Never heard something so stupid like that before. Everything that a Sarawakian done (It's either in team, or individual, or the state) seemed to distract other states especially the Semenanjung, except for Johor DT, I guess... Sound racist, haaaaaaaa.....

I'm not trying to fire up the racism thing, but it is totally obvious. Don't know how they see it as a threat to them. Call my mom for a minute.

Everything is fine. She just reached home after went to the clinic for regular check-up for diabetes and hyperventilation.All fine. Glad to hear it.

Oh-now! I really need my father to support me with my tyres, my car tyres.. I can't even afford to buy new ones because of what I earned here. But I feel grateful for I have a job when to compare to other graduates out there. Hopefully father will support me this month. At least support me so that I can change my tyre.. Hehehehe.. It is so costly, around RM205 for one tyres.. I need to change two, so around RM450-480 including the allignment and everything.. Hahahahaha!! I wonder how I can tell everything here, but having difficulty to say it out.. Oh my gosh...... It wouldn't be hard for me if I don't have my car, but car is essential for mobility. And as for me and my case, I need it for me to go to work. How I miss my student's life where I just study, enjoy around and not to worry much on money as I can always have my food at home or just eat Maggi (instant noodles)....

Life is tougher than what it looks like. The more your age increase, the more the unseen things will start to visible to you. What a life....

Out for lunch.

In now. Postponed my class to Thursday. I went to the loo just now to pass urine.. hahahahaha!! Smells like stink bean because I had it yesterday. Ohhhhhh, what a shame!! Malu malu!! Luckily no ones using the loo except for me and my friend.

She screamed," Dik makai petai kah???" (U eat stink beans???)

And me, "Hahahaha! Yaaaaaaa!!! What to do... :) "

This is how the stink bean looks like.. We called it, "PETAI".

 

And this is how it looks like after you separate the bean from the skin. (Taken from google.. This picture is by PeterTan.com)

And this is how it looks like after been cooked. And it is exactly the same way like my auntie's cooking. I tell you, it really taste gooodddddddd... With those chunky anchovies and squid... Totally superb!

 

And this is how people normally react when they come into the toilet after you did your business in there. (I took from google... Picture from Superstock.com)

And that's why they called it, "STINK BEAN".

IT TASTES GOOD IN THE  MOUTH, BUT SMELLS PRETTY BAD WHEN YOU DO YOUR "TOILET BUSINESS".

Yesterday is a past..

At last, I've been through the interview.. So I feel light and alive now... Hahahahaa

First of all, thank you dear God for letting the word of wisdom coming out from my mouth. At least I didn't look stupid during the interview.. Hehehehehe

For those who will be having their interview for Pegawai Tadbir dan Diplomatik, I wish you all the best. Take time to answer the question and keep calm. Follow all the basic dress code and the ethics.

If you are a candidate from Sarawak, make sure you know what is going on in your state. Read on the state's big project and development. For example, SCORE and renewable energy. Read the policy that related to the degree or master degree that you have. What else? Although you can answer all the questions asked, don't put high hope that you will get the post. Your chance is still 50-50. If it is meant for you, no matter what happen, you will get it. If it does not meant for you, no matter how hard you try, faham-faham lah...

And all of all, sit back and relax after you gone through the process. Resume back to your current life. And wait patiently for the result..(although we seemed to know what to expect there... hahahahaha)

Second day

I don't expect much from them. I've been in the same situation before, so I really try to be moderate so that we can have that one way flow only. And I also to brush up on the knowledge that I have. Need to update it. Hopefully after this week ends, I can get back to my on track.

Popped out question: "Will you be one of my bridesmaid?"
And me: "Seriously? That means I need to diet!!"
Next big event: May 2014.. (Thank God I still have time to reduce weight.. hehehehe)

Fresh starts for this semester

I know... But it didn't start well tho... I have problem with my car.. Errrgghhhhhh... So a bit late to attend the class. So today I am a passenger in my uncle's car.. Wala! Whooaaahhh!!! And went into the class, seeing somewhat 100 plus students waiting for me. And I just didn't know what to do.( I know, I used too much "and" and "so"..) So I just did all the basic things. Taking their attendance, split them into 2 groups, telling them what the do's and what are the dont's in my class. This time I have to be firm so that everything will go well. I love this class because those from Semester February 2013 attends this class. I like their energies. So it will help to balance between them and also the batch from Semester June 2013. You know, there will always the pro's and the con's. Positive vs negative.. The Yin and Yang.

Guess what?! My interview is on this coming Thursday. And I just don't know where to start and how to start. Seeing something that I really want and yet I just don't know where to start. With this attitude, I guess God also won't help me. Dear God, please show me the way. I'm lost.....

Yeeeaaaayyyyy!!!!

It's Friday! It's Friday! Without realizing that times fly in a blink of eyes.. I had that Hazelnut coffee and it tasted goodddddddddd... Smells niceeeeeeeee

September 19, 2013

First class for today was at 8am this morning. And the second class just finished at 2pm.. Gosh, I still have no idea what to teach. Morning was just nice.. I know what to teach, I have the idea but I still need to do revision from the notes that I have. But the second class, Sociology in Education~~~~ I don't remember anything about it. I did learn before but that was 4 years ago.. Can't recall anything...

This one is totally awkward... Goshhhhhh... Awkward yang I can't terima. Hahahaha!! Shitto! Why must it happened here in Malaysia? Hahahaha!! I wonder how, I wonder why... I don't mind at all, I respect everyone. Tapi mulut-mulut rakan-rakan "Gossip Girls" ya nak ku sik berapa berkenan. Kat depan memanglah ok, tapi esok lusa berbisik-bisik mengata orang. Acehhh cehhhhh.... Terkena aku ngan environment nak sik berapa tahun tok demi mencari rezeki. Last year berhoneymoon aku di tempat kerja aku. No one cares and I just love how the environment uplift our inner. Waisehhhhh... Sikap orang Malaysia nak ketara: 1. Suka mengumpat and mengata. Baik di depan, but once you turn your back, they will start to talk.
2. Suka mencampur adukkan hal personal and hal kerja. Damn it coz I don't favor this one at all.
3. Suka menjatuhkan orang yang berada di atas. Kes jeles lah selalunya.
4. And I love myself!

It's not easy to be me......

This is what I received today.. It's not final yet... My teaching schedule for this semester.. What to say.... Hopefully there will be no more add-on next week. I'm totally packed starting from this coming Thursday until one week before Christmas.... 

It's 9.41am, August 18th, 2013

And it feels like hours... Waiting for our turn to be on duty at 2.00pm today.. The most thing I miss about my old place is where no one really cares about you.. You are freed to wear anything (as long as your dressing is proper and suit your profession), you can do whatever hairstyles that you want, and you have the freedom when doing your work (as long as you don't skip your teaching hours). And the best thing is we really have freedom to do things in our own ways. No one "sebok-sebok" on you... Can't believe it tomorrow will be having the first class. And I am not prepared for it.

And the mark for my students will be released after 26th September 2013. Hopefully it will be going well. Cross finger. And now ( I know, I used the word "and now" frequently...) 

 Now, can give me at least a little space for me to breath? Where no one will look at me with "that type of look" when I do something to my hairstyle? Or dressing? Press the freedom button! The thing here is that they care much about us where sometimes we really need our own space.

I just realized that....

1... I need to study hard for this coming interview... It's tough.. I browsed around to look for the sample question and also to see the experience of those who went for the interview before... And it left me confused.. Am I doing the right choice for putting this job as my first choice in my application system before?....

2... and here comes Friday. I just noticed that today is Friday. That means I can sleep till noon tomorrow.. And it will be a long weekend till Tuesday (back to work).

3... we can only be friends. I guess it's better to keep it in that way because in that way, I can tell him anything, from A to Z. The feeling keeps on fading away. The moment I thought it fades away, the feeling of wanting to be with him keeps on coming back. It's a platonic love, that's how I define it.

4... I speak well with others whenever they come to me by bringing their positive energies around. If you come to me with this serious face and moody sort of attitude, you will get cold-effect from me too... New word we had learn earlier during the academic meeting was "Cold-Storage".

5... God gives me more blessings and I am totally grateful with the brain that He gave to me. Please continue to guide me, dear God.... And walk beside me always. :)

6... I don't like this situation when I have nothing to do in the office. I have, actually... Doing my filing before the academic weeks start next Thursday. I still haven't received any notes from any of course leaders.

7... I keep on checking our university portal ( my own portal) just to check my students' results. I get worried, I really want to know how they did in their final exams.

8... Sukhoi jets just fled away, above our office building. Rehearsal for this coming Malaysia Day Celebration. It will be a stunning air performance by the Air Force, I guess.. Sukhoi and Hawk will take part this coming Monday.

9... I have nothing to type.. Running off with ideas. By the way, I parked my car far away from my office as I just couldn't stand with the traffic jammed this morning. They closed certain roads for the full rehearsal today. And I was wet because it was raining, but not heavy, and I don't have any umbrellas. *sigh*

10... many conflicts in here. And I just keeping my ears and eyes open wide, and not going to interfere in any personal conflicts arise among them.

11... it's 3 minutes before 5pm. It's time to go home and MY WEEKEND PARADISE BEGINS!!!!!!!!

I feel the nerve....

Browsing some of the blog just to find info on how they will conduct the interview and what are the question that they probably will ask... Guess what, super-duper I don't know which level are those questions taken off... Seriously it got my nerve... Rasa nak pengsan tengok soalan...

Now  wonder what will happen to me during the interview in the next 2 weeks.... That's my weakness, I mean, my major weakness.

Hilang mood

Pendek jak kali tok.... Datang haid time bekerja buat aku sikda mood. Banyak banyak tandas, tandas nak ku pakey ya juak mok direbut. Aku gik busy busy dalam jamban, pun mok berebut.. Masuklah tandas sebelah... Mun sik pun, suruh management polah sigek tandas khas untuk ko... Muka jak cantik, tapi otak letak kat lutut.  Mok ku baling ko pakey modes aku kah? Rasa nak ku tikam kat ko jak pad ya.... Bodo.

I hate it when......

I just came out from the kitchen's office to take some drink.. And when I went to the the sink, guess what??? It was clogged with waste... Rice... After eating, why don't just throw the waste into the rubbish bin? Why must throw it away into the sink? It looks terrible for me. Don't they teach you at home on how to keep the sink hygiene??

 

It looks like this.. You just have to add in rice there....

 Don't expect the tea lady to do all the job. You eat, you throw your own left over into the bin, and you clear what you have been used.... make it a habit. I'm not used to see all these things. I'm glad that I've been taught well by my family on this kitchen's hygiene.