Thank you for crushing me down. The dream I had before was crushed down once again yesterday. Keep on repeating. I always dream of one big family, just like other people. And yet dad crashed them down again. Not once not twice, more than that.
I don't think I want to get involve anymore with any of them.
Seriously.
This is the first time where I feel like I just don't need any of them anymore. Why should I stay when they keep on crashing me? My dream? I thought things changed, but am wrong. Again.
I tried to fit myself in into this Jimmy's family. I thought everything is getting better. It turned out worst. I don't think they feel or have the same dream as mine. Dreaming to have a better family relationship, where everyone can just talk to each other, spend time like other family, get closer and get to know one another. Instead of all those things, we all drifted away. And it is always the same problem. Scandal and women. Reason? The same all reasons. Everyone is not good to each other, for one another. It turned out like toxic. So I guess all the time we had before this they were all fake. For the sake of the public eyes and the people surrounding us.
I guess, mom is correct all this while. Now I understand everything. Up to this point, it all makes sense. Mom was just trying to protect me from all these troubles. She keeps on telling me not to get close to dad and his new family. Me as myself, the desire of a child to be closer to her dad, and I did all I could just to get to know them better. The people I didn't know for almost half of my lives.
And what I get in return, Dad is always the same, I guess he will never change. The more I be closer to them, the more I get drifted apart. The more I get to know dad, the more uglier the facts I know. The more I try to understand them, the more scarier things I found.
With all these things that happen, am glad mom got divorced by him long long time ago, when I was 6 years old.
I had lived my life hard than the rest of the people I know. And I don't think I want people to make my life harder than before. Am done with all this. And am glad God has never once abandon me despite all those things. Because of all these things, I value my mom and our lives together more than anything else.
It is better with things just between me and mom. Without the present of dad....
#Shatteredmanytimes
#Theend
#Stoplookingforme
#Ihadenough
#Amdone
Bonus! Bittersweet: Capital E
Bonus! Nahhh. Forever awesome. They are still awesome.
(Source: YouTube - RAKUFEST)
Drug Restaurant: Pomade
Finally, I've been waiting for this. Didn't see this coming tho...
They were known as JJY Band before changing their name to Drug Restaurant.
Accidentally found them on YouTube and I just fell in love with their music. Am sorry not so sorry, but they remind of Arctic Monkeys. And also one of the Indie bands here in Malaysia. Can't remember the name, I'll update once I found them.
Now, let's talk on POMADE. I listened to all their songs already. This album has its own style. Suprisingly, all English songs this time. Which is such a bonus for people like me who don't understand their language but loving their music. Heh. Nice try for those who come from countries which English is not their medium of instruction. I know, the band were criticized on their grammar and vocabs and everything. As for me, music has no boundaries. Forget about the grammar, forget about the vocabs. It's worth for a try than they keep their talents to themselves.
The song Catwoman is good. Sorry to say, it reminds me of Redline '95 by Shizuka where they added Meow Meow. Chicky. Hahahaha. Drug Restaurant's Catwoman sounds sexy. At least that's what my ear told me.
Ain't I Good To You gives this melancholy feeling. I could feel the sadness. I guess the lyricist is being honest about his feeling.
The song Starved got me rebel. Hahaha. It brings with the rebellious thought. You know, you act naturally, with your pure attitude, but then people keep on misunderstanding you because it is just the real you? Did you get it?
This part caught my attention.
*Update: The Indie band from Malaysia that I mentioned above is Bittersweet. I still remember their song called Capital E. You guys should listen to it. 👍👍👍👍👍👍 Bittersweet music style and Drug Restaurant is almost similar. Not the same but they do gives the same vibes.
p/s: Really miss the Indie scenes in Malaysia.
They were known as JJY Band before changing their name to Drug Restaurant.
Accidentally found them on YouTube and I just fell in love with their music. Am sorry not so sorry, but they remind of Arctic Monkeys. And also one of the Indie bands here in Malaysia. Can't remember the name, I'll update once I found them.
Now, let's talk on POMADE. I listened to all their songs already. This album has its own style. Suprisingly, all English songs this time. Which is such a bonus for people like me who don't understand their language but loving their music. Heh. Nice try for those who come from countries which English is not their medium of instruction. I know, the band were criticized on their grammar and vocabs and everything. As for me, music has no boundaries. Forget about the grammar, forget about the vocabs. It's worth for a try than they keep their talents to themselves.
The song Catwoman is good. Sorry to say, it reminds me of Redline '95 by Shizuka where they added Meow Meow. Chicky. Hahahaha. Drug Restaurant's Catwoman sounds sexy. At least that's what my ear told me.
Ain't I Good To You gives this melancholy feeling. I could feel the sadness. I guess the lyricist is being honest about his feeling.
The song Starved got me rebel. Hahaha. It brings with the rebellious thought. You know, you act naturally, with your pure attitude, but then people keep on misunderstanding you because it is just the real you? Did you get it?
This part caught my attention.
"I am brutal like the BIG SHOW
But I'm not like the Texas killer
Who's gonna think
That I have an amazing heart"
But I'm not like the Texas killer
Who's gonna think
That I have an amazing heart"
Does he refering to The Big Show? I mean, The Big Show from World Wrestling Federation? That amazed me. The whole song sounded like it was referring to the lead vocalist, Jung Joon-Young. Sorry, I haven't check out who's writing whose on every song.
Overall, thumbs up for trying to come out with an English album. It must have been hard for them to get place in their country but for loyal fans, I guess this is a bonus. Hopefully next time, they will improve more (if language is really matter to some of the fans).
Heard that they will go on tour starting this September. I checked Jung Joon-Young's twitter. Not sure if that's his real one since I don't use instagram.
The cover album looks like this. Should be.
The tour schedule. For updates, I think better to check on his instagram or Facebook page. The information should be there.
(Source: Twitter)
Damnit seriously. How I wish I can attend any of their events. Looks promising.
Leaving you here with their mv for the song Drink O2 in The Water
(Source: JUNG JOON YOUNG OFFICIAL YOUTUBE)
Wishing Drug Restaurant all the best in whatever they do. Hopefully can hear more from them soon.
p/s: Really miss the Indie scenes in Malaysia.
Late post Raya 2017
Forgot to upload these photos. Need no elaborations. Too lazy to type.
Now you have the idea on how we celebrating Raya in Sarawak. I guess, as for our families, we celebrate almost all Malaysia festive seasons except for Deepavali. None of the family members marry to Indian.
😃😃😃😃😃😃😃
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