Long weekend......

See these: Friday, Saturday, Sunday, Monday...lama kan???...
Let's recall back those four @ 4 days...

Friday: 8am till 5pm, of coz laaa working...apa yang saya buat balik hari tu,yerrr???Couldn't remember much..tido kot..

Saturday: I woke up at 11am..rasa best sangat tido..bangun pun semadi jak ada kawan sms..terus tak jadi tido..ish ish ish..then at 12pm, kakak fetch me..ada kawan datang dari KL..to be specific, saudara kakak yang datang..went to rumah family angkat, lepak lepak kejap, then at 3pm,ambik si Lingesh di airport..Si Lingesh on the way nak usha si kakak..hahahahaha..sanggup datang Kuching..ish ish, geleng kepala jak lah...pas ambik si Lingesh, pegi ambik Alice..nak crita lagi ke??? malas I want to type..Pendek kata, that day sangat packed..Oh,ya! We went to watch movie, The Immortals..best gilerr cerita tuuuuuuuu..Must Watch Movie!!!..went home fetch mak angkat around 12am, then went for supper at McD airport..end of story..

Sunday: Woke up at 9am something...hehohehoheho...went jalan-jalan with my abang around 12.30pm....went to Boulevard with him..teman him beli barang for his ehem-ehem..hehehe..2 hours plus pusing-pusing Boulevard just to find that barang..addduhhhhhhhh...nasib baik he belanja McD after that..hahaha..2nd McD treat of the week!!! Yeayyy!!!..Thanks, bro! You're the best lahhh!!! :) Then,petang went to Pizza Hut before hantar si Lingesh back to airport..then me went to my own home..home sweet home...jumpa mak..aaaahhhhhhhhhh..nice to be back home...terharu jak rasa..hehehe..tido around 12am...

Monday: I woke up at 12.30pm, bangun untuk makan tengahari jak..an hour after that, I continued to sleep till 6pm..Wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!! Satu pencapaian yang amat membanggakan!!! hahahaha..orang sms me pun I didn't reply..Well, sleeping is more important than anything in this world...hehehe..
Malas nak taip..boring..Diego crushed my feeling..hehehe..ngek betul lelaki itu..huh

Me, myself and I...my Heart vs. my Brain 4

Hmmmmmm...I don't know why I feel so sleepy today...Reached home from work today, I just went to bed..tido sampai pukul 7.30pm...Ikutkan hati, nak jerrr tido terus sampai esok pagi..but then woke up and took shower..Ingatkan nak tolong aunti masak today, tapi nadai daya gak..Te lembau amat amat ku saritok...Hehehe..It's ok lah..They know it already..I seldom sleep late in the evening unless I really feel exhausted or I don't feel well...

Now, online my Facebook while typing here...My phone??? I put it on silent mode, and put it out from my sight..Nganganganga...Don't want to jaga my phone tonite..Takde pun orang message...Besides after this will be watching football Malaysia vs. Syria..Hehehehe..Nice haaaaaaaaaaaa....

Just now watching berita..ada ka patut bunuh baby yang baru lahir then bungkus put in the toilet???? Nang gila babi taik kucing apa ndak ka otak orang ya..orang lain susah payah nak dapat anak, nya nyaman nyaman buang anak..Although I don't prefer kids, but at least I know buang baby ya kesalahan bahhhhhhhh...If you don't want anak, use protection, stupid!!! How come senang senang buang anak without feeling guilty or apa-apa lah??? Nang sikda hati perut langsung...Give la to people if don't want..They deserve to see the world too..

Eeeeeee..Jari ku bau belacan..makai sambal asam campur ngau belacan ngau cili..besttttttt ehhhhhhhhh...Asai te ka makai burger jak..Namahal ho??? Dasar food-lover!!!! Kahkahkahkah..!!!! Entah apa apa jak nak di taip ku sitok..sikda faedah pun..saja saja jak memenuhkan blog tok..dah sikda keja gik,ne ndak..hehehe....

It's never been said and never been done....

This one specially dedicated to you, J.W.....I couldn't even type your full name..I just don't want to...Three years, and I don't feel anything..Sometimes I really miss you and wishing you were still breathing...sometimes I totally forget you...and then the next thing I found was that obituary advert in the Today's Catholic..accidentally saw it..that morning I saw the paper on the seat inside the car but I just felt sooooo damn berat hati to take it and read the paper..but lastly, I just picked it up and turned to the first page, second page..and next next page till my eyes caught on something..It was your picture...Three years has passed, and I never expect to see it again...felt like crying at that time..really miss you sometimes..guess too much things that I've regretted before about us..I still could remember the last time we met..we just didn't talk..and the last thing I knew, you were standing right beside me, whispering something that none of us wanted to hear..

J.W. : " This will be the last time I'll speak to you..I know there is someone here doesn't want us to talk to each other, and you know who..."

And I was standing still, I couldn't move, susah nak bernafas..And I was about to cry..and you just walked away..and all I can do at that, I turned back and watching you leaving..tears on my face..I turned to the front and walked away too..and you were wearing red t-shirt and jeans....

Many months after the last time I saw you....
The next thing I found out..my friend all the way from Miri called me early in the morning just to tell me to check the newspaper...One week or two weeks after your enrollment to OUM, Mati lemas and mayat tidak dijumpai...and all I could do, baring di tilam and crying the whole day....waiting patiently for the latest news..After three days, they found you...

The most hardest part was the day of your funeral.. Ya, I attended your funeral..went to your last mass..I was crying at the mass..dari mula sampai they sent you to the grave..I just couldn't tahan my tears..I've tried but I couldn't....sad..very very sad....

It's never been said.....keeping it all to myself...just between you and me..
Since you have been gone, knowing the fact that you will never come back, I still dial and sms to your number, hoping that one day you will reply me..but you never did..I miss your calls, and I miss your sms, and I miss you too....I miss the way you sing, the way you play the guitar, drum at the BM Mass at St.Jo Cathedral..That's why I never go to that mass again...rasa sayu, and always ended up in tears...I miss everything about you..You will always in my memory.....keeping it all safely in my heart...

May you rest in peace, Will.......

Stepping Stone..I love this song and Duffy too....

I remember way back way back when

I said i never wanna see your face again

Cause you were loving yes you're loving somebody else

And I knew oh yes I knew I couldn't control myself

And now they bring you back into my life again

And so I put on a face just like your friend's

But I think you know oh yes you know whats going on

Cause the feelings in me oh yes in me are burning strong

Chorus

But I will never be your stepping stone

Take it all or leave me alone

I will never be your stepping stone

I'm standing upright on my own

You used to call me up from time to time

And it would be so hard for me not to cross the line 

The words of love layed on my lips just like a curse

And i knew oh yes i knew they'd only make it worse

And now you have the nerve to play along

Just like the maestro beats in a song

You got your kicks you get your kicks from playing me

And the less you give the more i want so foolishly

Chorus

But I will never be your stepping stone

Take it all or leave me alone

I will never be your stepping stone

I'm standing upright on my own...

No I will never be your stepping stone 

Take it all or leave me alone

I will never be your stepping stone 

I'm standing upright on my own

Never be your stepping stone

Take it all or leave me alone

I will never be your stepping stone

I'm standing upright on my own

Me, myself and I...my Heart vs. my Brain 3

17th November 2011 : Exam SPA untuk jawatan Pegawai Antidadah Gred S41...uiihhhh, boring betul exam...and yet, I was still a bit drunk when I attended the exam..gilerrrrrr lahhhh...sampai nak mengeja pun tak betulll..You really tried hard to waste your own life haaaa, Moon Zappa????...hehehe..rasa dirik terer gilak kali minum sampey sik ingat dunia...ish ish ish....Anyway, everything went well that day..If lucky, dapatlah pergi ke next level..If not, fail lah like that PTD exam..hurrrmmmmm

Ikutkan hati nak je escape that exam...but rezeki youuuuuu...manalah tau, untung nasib kannnnnn...dahlah..so tired..ada orang nak datang rumah..esok jer lah sambung lagi...not feeling well actually..love-bug....

Me, myself and I...my Heart vs. my Brain 2

Continue lagi...hehehe

Around 11.30pm, on the same date 13th November 2011, my phone berbunyi..actually I was expecting msg from org lain...skali buka, msg dari father. Father said, inek passed away around 8.15pm..she passed away peacefully..she even recited Our Father..she remember her children's name and her cucu..She will be brought back to kampung early morning tomorrow...

And me, I didn't reply my father's msg coz I just didn't know what to say..termenung sekejap lepas baca that msg..then I msg my abang,Caesar..."Ko ada dapat msg bapak sik?Inek dah sikda..."

My brother replied,"Ada nya msg..ku dah tido tadik sebenarnya..."

Then I didn't reply him back..I turned my right, termenung then cried....sedih bah.....I cried till I fell asleep..and bangun the next morning trus tak turun kerja..couldn't concentrate at all..so I just stayed at home waiting for them to pick me up..then, don't want to tell again..not nyaman hati cerita....Pendek kata, my grandma passed away in peace..Love you, Grandma...

Me, myself and I...my Heart vs. my Brain 1

Inek passed away on the 13th November 2011..peacefully..she even recited Our Father before her death..Late evening on that day,

My father called me.."Your grandma passed away..,"sambil teresak-esak..

I heard it..hihihi..and I got panic and kept on asking when how why and everything..couldn't remember much..
Until at one point my father said,"Dengar dolok..belum habis cerita..ada cerita gik tok.."..

Then I stopped asking,"Oh,okay..I'm listening,"...

Father said,"Inek passed away around 7pm..Doctor pun already announced that she died.."..father paused sebentar, and me, in my heart,"I think I know the next line..."
Father sambung lagi,"And then you know, about 15 minutes after that, she's breathing again bahhhh..eeee...,"..

And me,"Emmm..benar kah???"..Father,"Benarlahhh"
And me,automatically, and couldn't control myself, I just,"Kahkahkahkah!!!Benar-benar kah???Hahahahahahaha..hehehe..kuat na semangat inek.."

Father pun, mula-mula ada bunyi teresak-esak macam baru lepas nangis,terus jadi,"Hehehehe..yalah..miracles bah..but then doctor said maybe she will live for another 2 or 3 hours coz her organs are all malfunction,except for her heart and her brain..."

Me,"Oooo...apa-apa kelak, you people inform me lah,k.."

Father,"Ok..if anything I'll call you again..maybe I'll be going to kampung to prepare the house for her last homecoming.."

Me,"Ok.."...off the line....

P/s: At this time, I was buzy menggoreng kerepek pisang..sambil tersenyum senyum and sumtimes ketawa kecil ngenang inek dah parai tapi hidup balik..I love my grandma..besides she was so small in size and looked so cute..just like me..ngeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee:)

Bla bla bla bla..there Moon goes again...hurrrrmmmmmmm

Dunno how to start and dunno what to write..now, watching Hitz TV Club Hits, online my FB and try to write sumthing..What to type,haaaaaaaaa?????? Bore bored boring super boring super duper boring...........what else?... Work was fine today..Me too fine..laughed a lot today..In fact we people in the office sempat lagi menilik tapak tangan and they tried to guess my jodoh..ambooiiii, pandai pandai jerrr diaorang tu...hahaha..I had so much fun there...hilang semua stress...

Bila dikenang next year, terasa takut..how does the environment of the school? Totally different laaaaaaaa..There Moon goes...Going back to the old routine..datang sekolah, mengajar, pulang sekolah, tido, buat kerja sekolah, lesson plan..There will be less social activities..hurrrmmmmm...How lehhhh???? Hehehe..and yet the school hours is longer than the government school...how come? But then the good news is that there will be no school on Saturday and Sunday...Yeeepeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!

Thinking of finding a home near to that area..memang I don't want to drive that far..and I need to save my time too, and also energy...Today I didn't help in the kitchen..hari ni budak-budak tolong masak..hehehe..Out for now..Chowwwwwww

........~ Breaking the SECRET ~.................

10 things you have to know about ME!!!! (Oppppsssss! can I add one more and make it 11???)

1. I'm a sensitive person..very very sensitive..So, please mind your word.. :)

2. Whenever I say I don't care, I don't really mean it...I still care, but not really that care laaaaaaaa......

3. I have hard time if I started to laugh..I can hardly stop myself..I can't even see or hear any weird words or apa-apa word yang pelik, I can just laugh at it...haabbbbbbbbiiiiitttttttt... :D

4. Nemu kitak, enti dibanding makai enggau tinduk, rela gik ku tinduk..hmmmmm..heaven, I tell youuuuuu!!!!!!!!!!!

5. I listen to any musics..from rock to ballad, from country to modern..apa-apa jak lah...

6. I LOVEEEEEEEEEEE my kaki especially the knees until toes very much... don't know whyyyy..

7. I HATEEEEEEEEEEEE my tummy..blueerrkkkkkkk

8. When I care for someone, it means that I really care.. but care doesn't mean that I'm in love..

9. LOVE: I want a person who can take care of me, knows his responsibilities, respect me and my parent, love me for who I am...SIMPLE!

10. I like to flirt around..sometimes...hehehehe..dangerous betullllllll :)

This part, I just don't want any of you to interfere...

11. Don't question my Christianity, my relationship with God..that's none of your business to judge me.. =)

One of my favorite song...Cheerssssssss!!!!

Cause I’m all about him him him him him

And his all about me me me me me

And we don’t give a dang dang dang dang dang

About nobody-e-e-e (x2)

Well

Had him shooting for me like a?

Every guy was a knock out, ?

But not none of um had?

That’s my thing

It’s not enough to have boss

Small?

One day by starbucks

I bumped into a guy rocking black chucks

He said excuse me beautiful

I said aww chucks

Then he asked for hey wanna grab lunch?

Never ever ever met a guy so fly

Got me hooked like apple pie-i

Think I’m falling and I dno why

But I won’t fight these butterflies

Cause I’m all about him him him him him

And his all about me me me me me

And we don’t give a dang dang dang dang dang

About nobody-e-e-e (x2)

And I swear what we have just is super cool

The way his always in my head like a blue?

I got a text from him he said just come through

Told me he wants to kick it kungfu

Don’t do nothing much at all

Just me and his boys watching football

He asked for a kiss so I gave him two

He said why thank you baby

I said your welcome boo

Never ever ever met a guy so fly

Got me hooked like apple pie-i

Think I’m falling and I dno why

But I won’t fight these butterflies

Cause I’m all about him him him him him

And his all about me me me me me

And we don’t give a dang dang dang dang dang

About nobody-e-e-e (x2)

No I don’t need no fancy cars

And I don’t need no diamond rings

My babys all I need and more

Cause I don’t need those extra things

It’s not about you (it’s not about you)

It’s not about them (it’s not about them)

It’s all about me (it’s all about me)

And it’s all about him (it’s all about him)

Yh (x11)

Said it’s all about him

Cause I’m all about him him him him him

And his all about me me me me me

And we don’t give a dang dang dang dang dang

About nobody-e-e-e (x2)

Cause I’m all about him

Cause I’m all about him

I’m all about him

We don’t give a dang dang dang

It’s all about you

It’s all about you boy

It’s all about you

Okayhh!!! Loveeeeeeeeeeee ittttttttt.........and please don't think that everything I posted here is all about my ex...What past is past, future much important..Looking forward to have a good journey in my life...should I leave you with a kiss???hahahahaha..MUUUaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhh ...xoxo

Reviewed of me by www.deideian.com

Moon Zappa - individu ini saya anggap sebagai saudara saya sendiri kerana sikap keprihatinannya terhadap permasalahan orang lain, baik hati dan sentiasa bersikap tenang dan bersahaja. cemerlang dalam pelajaran dan genius dalam kebanyakkan subjek. seorang yang perahsia dan bersikap " air yang tenang jangan disangka tiada ultraman". jika anda bertemu dengan dia, jangan sesekali bersikap sombong kerana itu adalah tindakan yang foolish. hahaha

This is what I've found in his blog..By the way, who is this guy anyway that dare to write something about me for his blog??? Cracked~ ~ ~ ~ hahaha..He's one of my housemates during my university years...kira my brother lah also...one of the penghuni LANGKAU BIRU because the paint of the house is blue.. he sang a song for the rat that he caught in the house before killing it....murderer betul....siap main gitar lagi..kesian...

Anyway, thanks Deideian for giving a reviewed on me..hahahahaha..lots of memories there...:)

Acha Septriasa ~ Sampai Menutup Mata ~

Embun di pagi buta

Menebarkan bau asa

Detik demi detik ku hitung

Inikah saat ku pergi

Oh Tuhan ku cinta dia

Berikanlah aku hidup

Takkan ku sakiti dia

Hukum aku bila terjadi

Aku tak mudah untuk mencintai

Aku tak mudah mengaku ku cinta

Aku tak mudah mengatakan

Aku jatuh cinta

Senandungku hanya untuk cinta

Tirakatku hanya untuk engkau

Tiada dusta sumpah ku cinta

Sampai ku menutup mata

Cintaku sampai ku menutup mata

Oh Tuhan ku cinta dia

Berikanlah aku hidup

Takkan ku sakiti dia

Hukum aku bila terjadi

What to do....

            Hmmmm..it's been a while since the last time I posted something here..I don't know what to type actually..have many things in my mind but I just don't know where to start..want to condemn people,ha???Nope!I duon't have the heart to do that..What about praise people???Nahhhhh!!!Buang masa jerrrrr....hehehehe..Tomorrow will be going out from Kuching..I love being far from Kuching..Far mehhh??? No laaaaahhhh!!!( Do u see that 'lah" word there?Typicall Malaysian with the 'lah'..hard to get rid of adding that to the sentences..habitttt...)...
            Tomorrow until Monday will be staying at a kampung with no phone coverage, no internet, no electricity..Wahhhhh, how wonderfull does it sound???Pretty amazing,haaaaa..hehehe..Guess it will bring me back to my old memories of my own kampung..still remember when I was in primary school, time Gawai and Christmas, the most scariest sentence was "BALIK KAMPUNG"...hahaha..mana tak nyerrr, we had to jalan kaki, went into the jungle, crossing river, naik turun bukit for 3 to 5 hours..I tell you, SAAKIIIITTTTTTT...Tuhan jak lah yang faham rasa hati time tu..besides, we were still small, still a kid...imagine jak jalan berjam jam just to get back to kampung..atleast we were still kid, and didn't have to carry anything..our parents had to carry our bags, all those kuih-kuih, air gas untuk perayaan..then,at certain points, we would stop for rest..duduk-duduk, rehat, makan isi perut..then continue walking..hmmmm
           For many years had to go through all those..but now, huh..petik jari jerrrr...jalanraya pun dah ada..phone coverage pun dah ada..just bekalan air jerrr yang masih takde..nehhhhhh..masih juga mandi air gunung...and today,hahahahahaha..soalan bonus from my friends to me.."MOON, SAPA NAMA INEK DIK?" ..and there I was termenung berfikir what is my grandmother's name????..adooiiiiii..hahahaha..After trying hard to memorise the name, last-last mengalah juga..terus sms orang d rumah,"SAPA NAMA INEK?"...apa punya cucu lah..hehehe..
           It's raining now..still at the office..doing nothing..checking my FB, typing this post..what else to do..I'll be missing my company sooner..honestly say, I really like the environment..but what to do, dah namanya kerja...sooner or later still have to face all those things..next year going to be in a new environment and I feel so nervous everytime when I'm thinking about it..just hoping that everything will work out well..:)