The Kill

I just feel I need to type something. Not going to update much as am still busy with my current work. In fact I just recovered from sickness. I guess my gastric pain got worst last Saturday. Muntah bagai kenak exorcism. Gosh. When I think back my last Saturday, I feel scared. Mun Badang ya wujud, kali cukup muntah aku pakey nya makan. 😂😂😂😂

So, like usual, I didn't take any foods after vomit. For at least 12 hours. So that my tummy could get some rest. I only had my food, the next day, on Sunday. Survived on porridge and plain water. And then, got this body ache and migraine. I guess my body just couldn't receive more that it just released everything. Like a dying person. Seriously. 

Today, I feel better. Slightly better that previous three days. Resume back with my work. At least I can focus on it without any interference. Later on will be going to hospital. Mom's youngest brother admitted into hospital last night. This year full of shocking news. I hope next year will be brighter for our family. 

There are times where I just hardly accept things like this. Tuhan jak tauk macam ney rasa hati. Bertimpa timpa jak masalah. 

Until at one part where I just feel like I could not do anything, I just lay down and cried to my sleep. 

Besar dugaan yang Engkau beri kepada kami sekeluarga, Tuhan...

Being strong is my strength. Even at my weakest point. 

People may not understand and I don't wish people to understand.. 

For I know God is always there to turn to.

I cry on my knees, I tell Him everything. And once am done, I know I have to get back on my feet and look forward again.

Kuching Pelamin dan Hantaran -Part 1

Will upload those photos later. This is a video taken last night after the planner completed everything.

This was done by the team from Kuching Pelamin dan Hantaran

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Take a glimpse on what they had done last night
 (click on the "Play" button video below. Will update again this Sunday)

When my friend told me...

"Dik sepatutnya ngambik major Language & Literature bah suba. Ukai Math"

And me,

 "Nemu ku. Memang aku ka ngambik nyak suba, tapi dik nemu lah macam ne keadaan aku masa nyak. Setegal aku ngai sama ngambik major ngau bekas pangan ku nyak aku te alu ambik Math"

And hearing this once again last Tuesday made me like should I further my study in Master or doing another degree? Different one. Or maybe I should do some short courses related to English. I may not be good or excel in it, but at least it is something that my heart always want to do. 

Owh gosh. Seriously. 

It was the biggest mistake I had done in my life. 

Ever. 

Seriously I regret about it till now. 

Now I just slowly accepting myself and trying to do the best in this field. Mathematics may not be my best, but by doing out the best I can, I believe I can go through everything. Including Calculus. How I manage to learn Discrete Mathematics before this, I believe, given time and doing more whenever I learn it, I should be able to teach this subject well later.. next semester. Or maybe next next semester. 

P/s: I have no idea when am gonna stop whine about this. It's a never-ending story....

🙍🙍🙍🙍🙍

O.nature real cotton mask

Last night was good. Hahaha. Good in the sense that I had this facial mask before I went to sleep. I bought the masks at this box shop. First time tried this mask. And it was so good that this morning I didn't even use moisturizer. 

Did I get the spelling there right??

Seriously. Where can I buy this thing here besides the box shop? Am gonna try the anti aging next time. 

Am aging.

 Owh owh owhhhhhhhhh

I bought two, so I put one on my cousin and one on myself. 

 

I've tried to google to search for this product but I couldn't find it.

Hhhmmmmm, but it was good on me.

Entangen The Original Dayak Taste

I went to this cafe with my friend last Sunday after the evening mass service. I was just too craving on this kampung foods. Am a kampung girl so I just cannot live without this kampung home cook foods thing. 

So my friend brought me to this cafe called ENTANGEN. 

The food were good, the one that we ordered. This cafe is a strictly non-halal cafe. I was looking for daun bandung a.k.a tapioca leaves. Luckily they had it that night. You see, the way the Bidayuh cook their food is totally different from the Iban. The Bidayuh from Serian and Bau and other places too have different syles of cooking. I love my Serian root. They don't use a lot of cooking oil in their food.

And because the daun bandung mene mene sidik, I didn't take any photo of the foods. You have to go there and see and have them for yourself. 

This is the menu book

This is the meaning of Entangen

(But in my kampung, Entangen is longhouse. I guess the way we used the word is differ from every kampung. Hehehe)

See. This photo was taken by the owner (I guess) and they had it on the Facebook page 

(FB page: Entangen The Original Dayak Taste)

 Thank you for the good service. Keep it up and all the best in this business. Good foods, good service and good maintenance will bring you success. 

 Okayh. 

That's me, MZ. Gosh. Am not good in doing this thing.

P/s: Do not treat this as a review. Am just looking for something that I love to eat and share to the people. Good foods should be shared, isn't it?
And they have cross sign at the counter and The Last Supper photo on the wall. That was so sweet...

😘😘😘😘😘👍👍👍👍👍

Tuesday

Am not feeling good today. 

Short and simple, isn't it..