LAN BERAMBEH 2015 ~~ One week to go

 This is an awesome event for anak-anak Sarawak and plus everyone are welcome. So, spend some times to drop by and enjoy the event. Heard that many activities will be held on that day. Iboh malu malu indah. Datang jak sia. Sik selalu pun dapat pegi nakkk.

 Below are the details.

 

 Photos taken from Facebook of YB Hajah Nancy Shukri (Menteri di Jabatan Perdana Menteri)

Facebook page https://www.facebook.com/pejabat.nancy?fref=ts

For more information you may visit this Facebook page 

 https://www.facebook.com/LanBerambehAnakSarawak

Have fun and enjoy the awesome day, everyone! One week to go!

Million things

Million things running in and out of my brain. I feel heavy heart because of it...
Million things running in and out of my brain. And it makes me lost in my own thinking. Not knowing the exact things that I am thinking...
Million things running in and out of my brain. I am frozen in my own space. Not knowing what to do and how to say it out loud...
Million things running in and out of my brain. I feel hopeless.
Million things running in and out of my brain. I just do not know where to go...
Million things running in and out of my brain. If only you feel what I feel right now...
Million things running in and out of my brain. If only..........................

-Appaz Noom-
Thursday, October 15th, 2015

Seriously?

Do you really read things I posted here? How does it feels like reading someone's days? Feeling good? Does it helps you to feel thankful and feeling better with your current situation? 

Seriously, I've been wandering on this for this whole day. I hope it won't make your day worsen.

Days go by

I have no idea on what I had been doing during my leave and weekend. I did nothing. Just wandering around town with family, stayed at home watching tv, listening to good musics, spring cleaning the room. Oh gosh. Talking about room. Its kinda funny how me and my cousins could stay in that room with all the mess. Felt so so so relieved after cleaning the room. Life been busy lately. Got no time to do the cleaning.

Good news. I have settled everything on my car. Feeling blessed and thankful for everything. The insurance covered everything on the car cost. Therefore, my first car which I bought and owned for almost two years is officially in memory. Glad that I am still alive today and survived the accident. I love the car as I really worked hard to own it. Now, it didn't exist as every parts of it cramped and crushed during the accident. Mom asked when do I plan to buy a new one. I told her, not too soon. Will buy a new one before end of this year. I really need to construct back everything as I plan to further my study in September 2016. Quite a long plan. It is indeed a long-term planning. Still thinking and have not decide on what to study. Still weighing every options and choices. I don't know how the plan will help me in the future, but I believe the turn out will be good. It should be good. It is an investment which you can't barely see the expectations and the routes it will take you to. Praying it will go smoothly.

Work? As usual. Nothing much. The same old routines. Except for the subjects taught and number of students will give me challenges. Received two unfamiliar subjects which I have never taught before. I think I will need to study a bit before the opening new semester next week. Not I think, I must and I need to study. Assessment in Education and Testing & Evaluation in Education. I never teach those before. And I expect there will be loads of calculations and analysis. The burden as an educator is there and it never decrease. Ok. Now let's stop talking on work.

I'll continue later... Try to keep the entry as short as possible.

I am.. The way I am.

I guess I'm too good in giving others' advice. Without taking it for my own good. I guess all of us does that. I keep most to myself. I've been raised in that manner. Sharing the good to the people surrounding, spreading the positiveness but keeping all the saddest things by myself and never show it no matter what happen. I guess it helps me to be strong and have a good faith no matter, bad or good thing happen to me. It keeps me and helps me to grow from time to time. But then, once I've been crushed down, it is always hard for me to get back on my knees. It's a bit tough for me to stand tall again. I really take my time to do so. 

Now, am holding onto this, cry a little or cry as long as you want but never forget to stand back again. Kneel and cry and complaint everything to God, cry and pray, and make sure to get back on your feet again. 

And wa-la! I really did that sometimes. I cry, I pray and I stand back again. We need those times regardless how strong you are in the inside. In fact, we need some little times for us to cry a bit. To let go your tears a bit. We really need it. In short, we do need the alone moment for us to reflect back our doings.

For me, I do believe in God. He listens to whatever you ask for, listens to whatever you tell Him. You just need that faith to keep on listening to His call. He lets things happen according to His ways, not yours. 

Sometimes, it seems He fulfills yours, sometimes it seems like He is letting the bad things happen to you. And for me, if it's bad, that will be your lesson. Learn from it. Bad things happen for a reason. And the reason is always for you to learn something. Learn to make things better than before. 

Today. September 7th, 2015

Today. Thinking about life. Life or lives? Always get mixed up. English is weaken at the lowest. Ha???

I have many things running inside my head now. And yet, I keep it silence. At the deepest part of my brain. Perhaps heart. I'm going through the journey of my life. And yet I'm not sure whether I'm on the right path. At this age, almost entering my 30's, I should know whatever I want to do. But still, I'm in confuse. 

It looks like I'm doing things that I want to do, but actually not. I don't count the times I'm whining on the career or my jobs, but I guess it happens all the time whenever I get the chance to whine about it.

And it does make me look so ungrateful. Deep inside, I do feel grateful but I'm not open up to my path now. I'm sincere but not fully sincere. I guess. I'm stuck in the word responsibility. I know my responsibility. If I'm going to do whatever I want to do, I may end up crushing few people's hopes on me. Lame, haaa.. But it's the truth. 

For whatever reasons, I hope I'll be able to do well and keep on doing the very best I can. We may not get what we want, but God always gives us the one that we need. I truly believe this. 

The next plan to make it into reality is to further my study. Still planning on it. If there are nothing coming in my way, perhaps will enroll myself in September 2015. It's one of the things in my to-do lists. I learn sign language, and I'm done. I bought a car, and I'm done. Few things are already done. I'm making use of my time to fulfill whatever the things I wanted to do.Getting a home is impossible for now. In progress of building a home with my mom and hopefully it can settle before the end of next year. 

And I need to go somewhere, to a place where I always dream to be. I'm keeping it and hopefully will be getting there before I reach 33 years old. I'm keeping it here so that I have something to remind me of that dream. JAPAN. As beautiful as the 5 words. Heh.