Today. Thinking about life. Life or lives? Always get mixed up. English is weaken at the lowest. Ha???
I have many things running inside my head now. And yet, I keep it silence. At the deepest part of my brain. Perhaps heart. I'm going through the journey of my life. And yet I'm not sure whether I'm on the right path. At this age, almost entering my 30's, I should know whatever I want to do. But still, I'm in confuse.
It looks like I'm doing things that I want to do, but actually not. I don't count the times I'm whining on the career or my jobs, but I guess it happens all the time whenever I get the chance to whine about it.
And it does make me look so ungrateful. Deep inside, I do feel grateful but I'm not open up to my path now. I'm sincere but not fully sincere. I guess. I'm stuck in the word responsibility. I know my responsibility. If I'm going to do whatever I want to do, I may end up crushing few people's hopes on me. Lame, haaa.. But it's the truth.
For whatever reasons, I hope I'll be able to do well and keep on doing the very best I can. We may not get what we want, but God always gives us the one that we need. I truly believe this.
The next plan to make it into reality is to further my study. Still planning on it. If there are nothing coming in my way, perhaps will enroll myself in September 2015. It's one of the things in my to-do lists. I learn sign language, and I'm done. I bought a car, and I'm done. Few things are already done. I'm making use of my time to fulfill whatever the things I wanted to do.Getting a home is impossible for now. In progress of building a home with my mom and hopefully it can settle before the end of next year.
And I need to go somewhere, to a place where I always dream to be. I'm keeping it and hopefully will be getting there before I reach 33 years old. I'm keeping it here so that I have something to remind me of that dream. JAPAN. As beautiful as the 5 words. Heh.
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