Today. September 7th, 2015

Today. Thinking about life. Life or lives? Always get mixed up. English is weaken at the lowest. Ha???

I have many things running inside my head now. And yet, I keep it silence. At the deepest part of my brain. Perhaps heart. I'm going through the journey of my life. And yet I'm not sure whether I'm on the right path. At this age, almost entering my 30's, I should know whatever I want to do. But still, I'm in confuse. 

It looks like I'm doing things that I want to do, but actually not. I don't count the times I'm whining on the career or my jobs, but I guess it happens all the time whenever I get the chance to whine about it.

And it does make me look so ungrateful. Deep inside, I do feel grateful but I'm not open up to my path now. I'm sincere but not fully sincere. I guess. I'm stuck in the word responsibility. I know my responsibility. If I'm going to do whatever I want to do, I may end up crushing few people's hopes on me. Lame, haaa.. But it's the truth. 

For whatever reasons, I hope I'll be able to do well and keep on doing the very best I can. We may not get what we want, but God always gives us the one that we need. I truly believe this. 

The next plan to make it into reality is to further my study. Still planning on it. If there are nothing coming in my way, perhaps will enroll myself in September 2015. It's one of the things in my to-do lists. I learn sign language, and I'm done. I bought a car, and I'm done. Few things are already done. I'm making use of my time to fulfill whatever the things I wanted to do.Getting a home is impossible for now. In progress of building a home with my mom and hopefully it can settle before the end of next year. 

And I need to go somewhere, to a place where I always dream to be. I'm keeping it and hopefully will be getting there before I reach 33 years old. I'm keeping it here so that I have something to remind me of that dream. JAPAN. As beautiful as the 5 words. Heh. 

Still not there yet

I haven't update anything here since i really don't have the mode to update anything. I'm thinking to close this page for good. Nahhh, I've said it before then I recover back this page. Still need space for myself. Yet this page is available to the world. As if I'm telling the whole world what's inside my heart but not telling anyone close here near me.

Typing these from home, doing nothing and it's weekend. Don't know what else to do. And I'm having few tabs on one page. My Facebook, my twitter, YouTube and this blog. Cannot live well without musics. What do you want to know? What you would like to hear from me? I really have no idea what to type here. 

Sigh. Sigh. Sigh. Sigh. Sigh. Sigh. Sigh. Sigh. Sigh. Sigh. Sigh. Sigh. Sigh. Sigh. Sigh. Sigh. Sigh. Sigh. Sigh.

It's a long one.

What if...

What if freedom never really exist....
What if peace is just a face to cover and gain power...
What if humanity is only done in the name of fame...
What if Nelson Mandela is still alive and speak on unity...
And John Lennon is still singing on his rendition on peacefulness.. Imagine.
What if persecution could be prevented through tolerant and respecting one another...
What if.........

~Appaz Noom~

Mini banana cake

I went out today during lunch with Azie. Went to a stall. And I saw this mini cake. And I don't know I fall in love with banana cake recently. And this mini cake looked like a banana cake. But, yeahhh. Little version of it. and it looked like this. This is exactly the mini version. 

And did I mention I was excited because I thought it was a mini version of banana cake? Bulls**t. It didn't taste like one. How the look deceived me, the innocent one... How could they do this little lie? How could they.... An I shattered just after I took a little bite on it.

That was a massive disaster of the day. The end.

Catching up with family and friends. Moments to be remembered.

Trip to Miri. Not many photos as we were all busy doing our own stuffs. This time manage to take this photo.

New addition in Bujang's family, Baby Dhani a.k.a Junior.

The main purpose to Miri was to meet the one and only girl of Jamaludin's latest generation.

Meet Baby Husna.

Both are new edition to Jamaludin's family.

Samir's birthday in advance.

Catching up at Riverside Majestic Hotel.

Okayh. Catching up with friends. Since it was a short holiday and just a few hours of meeting. Susie made laksa Penang for us. Sorry, coz not putting up any photos of foods. Didn't cross my mind to take any photos. 

(Me, Sonita & Susie. Syl wasn't in the picture.)

  

The three of us again.

And our own very private Mr. M.A. with Lilo.

I guess, that's all for today. And I think I should start to do signature for every photos so that you won't be able to download or do whatever to them. Gonna start to figure out on how to edit photos. Seriously, I'm too dumb to do all the photoshop things. Just done the preview. I never knew the tab for every photos turned into black. Gonna change that again. Too annoying to the eyes.

Everyday. Starting today. 11th May 2015.

Am gonna post new entry everyday starting today. Hopefully. Since they keep on telling us not to stream on YouTube as it slower down the internet line, I guess am loosing one of my entertainment sources. So, am resorting myself to this blog. I just need something to write on. Not necessarily a long entry, it could be 2 to 3 sentences entry. As long as I update and post something. 

Yahhhh, right. You read it correctly. Cannot expect us or me to read or study or doing work the whole 8-5pm time. I know, it's working time, keep it effectively. But during the 8 to 5pm time, sometimes we just need to slower down ourselves. Nahhh, it does not matter at all. Can keep finding other sources of entertainment just to kill the time. Muahahahaha.

It's still exam week. And me, not on duty today. I spent most of my previous two weeks watching YouTube. Wasn't feel good at all yesterday till this morning. Maybe it was just my mindset. Felt totally not good and at 8am something, everything turned ok. What the hell.. Yup, mindset, to be precised.