Saturday, July 27th 2013

It's our college internal Sport Games today! Should I scream Hip! Hip! Hooray! or I'll be in trouble???? Why trouble??? I'm taking part in Sudoku. And that's clearly put me into trouble. Just like the song Trouble by Taylor Swift and they keep on playing that song since one hour ago... Aigo

I was sick yesterday. Today I'm feeling well. Hopefully stay well until night. I need to bring my mom, auntie, grandma and uncle for "jalan-jalan".. In formal word, sightseeing... Don't know where to go. Still waiting for time. While waiting, typing something. For sure tonight I can't go online. Unless I steal my time to online. My work loads getting higher with the sending of assignments due to the due date of submission. *sigh*

----I know what you think. This girl won't do anything to mark the assignment, bla bla bla chirp chirp chirp-----

I'm getting fat, I guess.. Or in a polite way to say it, "I'm gaining weight..."
I don't really understand why and how. Maybe because of my eating routine. I'm fasting (sometimes I fast, and some other time, I don't)... See, they repeat playing that Trouble song again. It does make me feel I'm in a huge trouble.... Ngaiiittteeeeeeeeeeeeee.... Can they just stop it??????

No... No no no, I'm not a Muslim. Ya ya ya, I do fast... SO what's the problem? I don't see any problems with me fasting. :)

SO, just don't question it again. My boyfriend is not a Muslim too.

 ( I don't have one, you know... Totally single.. Hahahaha!! Due to my determination to build a career of my own.. SO, I don't worry much on who is my boyfriend, when I will get married... God knows what to do... Eventually, I'll get married, either it will be here on earth or in heaven... It makes me wonder who will be the man that can understand me... Hhhhmmmmmm...)

So far, I'm just comfortable being on my own, with no one controlling over me, with no one to take care (except for my family and friends laaaaaa..) and it does give me the freedom to be friend with anyone and everyone around me. *big smile*

So, yaaaaaaaaaa.... I know, too much "SO", "LAAAAAA", "BUT" and whatsoever... True, right?.... *cluck*

I'd really tried hard to upgrade something here.. For example, the smiley icon and the action icon.. But then, I just have no ideas where and how to have it here. Do you know what I mean?.... ;)

It's getting merrier....

Just finished the game... I have never been working hard just to complete a game. And the last thing I did, I just left my game undone. Hahahahaaha!!!! And I still have that nausea thing... I guess the uncertain weather has been influenced me these days... 

I know, it's a bit troublesome for me to cope with the weather. It affects me in a way, bahhhhhhh.... Later have to go for rest, then I can go to my mom's place. Usually I'll just stay @ home doing my works and most of the time sleep and watching tv. Just don't know where to go. To cope with my workloads I'll concentrate on my "checking and marking" all those assignment before next week. And by next week, hopefully can complete everything. Besides I also need to prepare my files for the MQA's visit. In fact, all of us have to do the same thing. the key-in marks, the progress reports, students' progresses.... I need and must list everything so that I don't forget any one of them. That is what we called "THE CHECKING LIST".

I wonder where all the people gone. Can't seem to find anyone. I thought to go home before my condition getting worst. I know and I realized that I don't get enough rest although I seemed to get one.

Can I do this? Wish I could.... Taken this one from google...

I really wish I can do this.. Can't wait for the semester break...  I already plan the days that I'll be taken for semester break. Then I can spend more time with my family... Thought to go back to my hometown village.

Just to kill the time before I go home with that blue heavy paper bag. 

(filled it with my students' assignment)

I wonder if I ever finish marking it before the next day after tomorrow.

Oh,ya.... Someone asked me again about my past relationship. It came to me ear that they said I got married before and divorced. What the f*ck!!! I didn't feel angry actually. Just want to shout that "F" word to those who spreading the rumour. Ya ya ya keep on spreading rumours about my personal life. I didn't defend myself because I don't see the main point for me to do that. Enough I have my family, my closed-relatives and my friends who know me more that the people outside there. All I need is them. They know the truth. They have been lingering around me since I was a kid... and they always stand side-by-side with me.

And most of all, I have God with me. His presence is enough to keep me strong. 

GOSSIPS AND RUMOURS KILL THE IMAGE OF A PERSON. IT DOES HAVE NEGATIVE IMPACTS TO A PERSON REPUTATION. SO, WATCH OUT THE WORDS THAT COME OUT OF YOUR MOUTH. WATCH OUT YOUR TONGUE FROM BEING CRUEL TO OTHERS. 

AS A REMINDER, LOOK AT THE PHOTO BELOW.. FEEL IT, UNDERSTAND IT.. AND MAY YOU FIND WISDOMS WHEN YOU START TO SPEAK. 

*PEACE SIGN*

I don't... Unless.... You will have to..... -24th July 2013-

Ya... Please bear in mind that I don't exclude people from my friends' networking. I don't have that racism. I would be friend to anyone. I don't mind if people talk bad about someone. All I know is that I will get to know about that particular person before judging them. And so far, I don't judge people. And I don't care on how people will look at me just because I am a friend of this person and so on. Unless you talk about me or bitching on me, you will have to pay back. That will be the time where I will start to exclude you from my friends' list.

Laaaaaa.. Today I went out for lunch... And I saw this one guy with using this CIMB employee card. He wore formal attire, totally office wear. The moment he folded his long sleeves ,I went like "Wooowwww... Amazing...." by his tattoos.. Both arms full of tattoos.... Where can you find someone like that nowadays???

Updating again today as I didn't have the time to finish this entry. Health is not in a good condition.. Gastric, the most fearful word for me. And I just can't afford to fall sick until the examination week is over. Once sick, it can be the most worried period for the rest of my family members. Loads of work like usual. Need to check the assignment (loads of assignments), get it thoroughly, giving the marks, key in the mark, plus minus all the marks, then have to prepare those reports.

It's payday today! Hoorayyyy!!! That means start to pay all the unpaid bills. *sigh*
Working for nothing, not even for the salary. This is what I called working for the sake of your own interest. The feeling, the satisfaction that we  get as an educator is much more worth while than the money itself. We do need money at some point, but yaaaaaa..... Career, ambition, hope and everything set aside the money.

And this coming Saturday will be joining the rest for indoor games competition. And I have to play sudoku... Gossshhhh.... Can I join other games? The game that does not require me to think while having fun. And I said yes to join sudoku because I thought I would be having fun during the game, but since everyone is serious about it ( I saw few lecturers already start to practise, and students too) I've decided to practise to. Yeahhhhhh, who in the world wants to lost the first round? It will be shameful. Hahahahahahaha *grinned + laughing in my heart*

Cross finger and pray and hope an do the best I can do. They take it seriously, and so do I. Chow! Bye~~~~~

July, 18th 2013

Now I noticed that I posted entry for almost everyday... It happened just because I have nothing to do.. Seems like have nothing to do.. In real, I do have loads of work to complete. To read, marking, check my students' research proposal... A bit disappointed as not many of them submit their proposal for their continuous assessment marks. and I still hearing that annoying noise. Clap! Clap!

Nice! Looks like I'm the only one who is sitting restless @ my cubicle. Treeeetttttttttttttttttt..... All looking at their own pc monitor. Kitak orang ingat keja sidaknya berjalan? Oucchhhhhh, nope! Certainly no. Only few doing their work, and the rest either they go online, or playing pc games or playing online games.

Wondering what will happen in the next 3 years to come... What will happen to me, my life.... I know I should not have think much on it, and should focus on what I have now and put efforts and more responsibilities to what I have now. But it seems that I just can't run from the fact that I still love to have my own job where I can just adjust my own time and building my own career.

It's getting intense whenever they start to talk. Hahahahaha! I know, I don't talk much. My actions seem to speak louder than my mouth.

July, 17th 2013

I know... Most of my entries, I put the title by using dates. Nahhhhh... It's very significant to me as it's to indicate the date I post the the entry. Understood? I know... Ayat berbelit kannnn... Even me also have no ideas what am I typing right now. Sitting for several hours on your own seat will just influence the way you think. Bluurrrffffffffff.

Having my chicken-pie (this one I tell you, seriously shit very nice.. The crust is soooooo sooooo soft till it does not require you to chew it at all. And the filling, sooooo sweet that you just smile while chewing on the filling. The taste of the chopped potatoes, shredded chicken, the taste of the sweetened milk, mayonaise....) It just blew my brain out of my skull... Hahahahaha!! It's truly SUPERB! I just can't deny it.

Shocking sentence, "It just blew my brain out of my skull" to show that the chicken pie is truly "AWESOME". And now I guess, I'm exaggerating too much on the CHICKEN-PIE. Manas orang nangga baca. Mun paham, bisai.

2 hours and 30 minutes to go before we or make it more specific, ME, can go home. In the meantime, buat bodo jak kat sitok. I have work to do, loads of work... But being an imperfect human being, we are bounded to the number 1 syndrome in the world which is LAZY... Phwweeetttttttttrrrrrfffffff
That's what linger on me. More and more excuses, and now saya sudah merepek merapu..... Don't be offended by me as this blog is for me to talk to myself and maybe to outreach few people out there. SO, don't bother yourself to read any of my entries. Besides I'm not good in writing, not good in expressing what's inside my mind or my heart.... These are all JUNKS! By the way, are we allowed to use "all junks" or it should be written as "all junk"? Kegilaan betul! *slap your face*

Umpat-umpatan, gosip-gosipan, or GRAPEVINES.... Sick of that... I just don't like to hear all those. SAYA JARANG NAK MENGUMPAT UNLESS IT'S VERY IMPORTANT. Kannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn......

As long as you are in the office, without your own room, bertahanlah dengar-dengar, eventhough they bukannya cerita kat you. Tapi if orang dah cakap cakap in front of you (this situation is where you are gossiping with your friends and your desk is between them, what to do....)

And one more, even the tiniest issue, that sekelumit semikro anak cucu cicit kuman pun, they will still gossiping on it. Stressssssssss aku.

Being  in the group of majority gender in this building make us to share the loo with the opposite gender. And during peak times for a girl lady like me, I have to look around, just in case there's a male staff going into the toilet at the same time as I go too. Hard, isn't it? Especially when you need to change your pad (and I don't feel sorry to type this to the public. Ngaaaaaaaaa) or answering the mother nature call. Urrrghhhhhhh, extremely annoyed by that.

Alright. Another one hour to go. Hu! Hu! Can you imagine the world without...... ME????? Gotchaaaaaaa!!!

Great, isn't it? Especially my families. Great numbers! Seems that it's getting silent. Annoyed by some "NOISE". I know, I have these workaholic traits in me. This term is the most respectable addiction in the world and that makes it as one of the most glamorous stone fire in the world. Stone fire??? Yaaaaaa... It does bring one's jealousy to a critical level. Orang buat kerja versus orang yang banyak kerja tapi goyang kaki versus orang yang sikda kerja tapi suka jaga tepi kain orang lain. Seolah olah nya sikda tepi kain sendiri. Susah payah juak mok jaga kain orang. Haishhhhhhh....

Questioning people as if you adalah seorang expertise in that particular matter. And me, ANNOYED! We are at the same level. Do you really produce that "thing" yang menepati tahap standard and berkualiti? If you are at this level (beginner, kata orang), sebaik-baiknya bertanyalah kepada warga veteran. Jangan malu bertanya. That's why if you sedar yang you kerja dalam kelompok orang ramai, jangan buat hal by mengumpat ka, bergosip ka, apa ka... Lambat laun, you will have to turn to that person to seek help or guidance. Ish ish ish.... Tak pernahkah kamu belajar Pendidikan Moral, hidup saling bekerjasama dan tolong-menolong? What goes around, comes around, people! Don't ever judge a person by what you have heard or seen before. Set those aside. And be a professional. Since we are the professional line. Follow the work ethics.

Let's see. If I ever want to talk on this, I can take  and use the whole day to type on this or maybe days, weeks because I'm experiencing it now. And somehow somewhere, I got and getting sick of it. Dengan warga yang rasa diri terlalu PANDAI, dengan warga yang rasa diri HOT, dengan warga yang rasa diri EXCLUSIVE, dengan warga yang rasa diri ATTENTION SEEKER.... Goshhhhhhhhhh... I know I'm strong enough to face these type of people for 5 days in a week, and about nine hours per day. Can you imagine how am I facing these for the whole year? And some other days we have activities too? Huhuhuhuhu....

THE TRUTH IS I'M GETTING IMMUNE WITH THE SURROUNDING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

TO AVOID ATTENTION AND ANY ISSUES, I JUST BECOME AN OBSERVER AND DO MY OWN STUFFS. JAGA PERIUK NASI SENDIRI. TALK WHEN NEEDED ONLY.

AKHIR KATA, HINDARILAH GOSIP GOSIP UNTUK KESEJAHTERAAN DIRI SENDIRI. 

K - BYE!

Go back to previous years.. 8 years ago....

I'll try to upload my old photos here.. And most pictures are courtesy from my friends.. I don't keep old photos... :)

So, here is the first photo that I've found. Taaaaddaaaaaaa

 Alright. Let's introduce them one by one...

From right to left: Nicholas Rekan (blue shirt), then we have Sabrie Daisy in his white shirt, and hey! That's ME! Lastly, Bobo in her red shirt... Uuuuuuu... Bestfriend muu yoh??? Hahahaha!! She was, once... :)

 

I'll try to find as many photos I can. *Peace, yo!*

 

Couldn't remember whose birthday party.. It was taken @ waterfront... Look @ me... Gossshhhhhhh

June, 25th - June, 30th 2013

Alrightttttt... Seriously I have no ideas to put everything into words. Besides, I'm @ work now. To be exactly, in the office, typing from my pc @ my own cubicle desk.

It was a 6 days holidays with my cousin and also her besties. Yippiii!!!!! Happy kah? Bolehlah :)
 But then to be honest for that 6 days, I just couldn't stop myself from missing Kuching... Laaaaaaaa, naaaaaaaa... Kuching is my hometown. Sarawak is my "tanah tumpahnya darahku". Truly a place like no other.... Terbaiiikkkkkkkkkkk!!!!

June, 25th 2013: - Been on the last flight to LCCT.. It's been many years for me to finally get back on the plane. Seriousssllllyyyyyy!! The last time was in 2002, Kch-KLIA-Terengganu-KLIA-Kch.. Dulu berhenti guna airport KLIA.. Now we have this Air Asia thingy, so lower cost kannnn... LCCT lahhhh...  Landed there around 1.15am. Earlier plan was to stay overnite @ the airport, but then naik bus terus pegi KL Sentral. KL sentral tutup, still in renovation process. Sepatutnya memang boleh masuk, but then those taxi drivers, those rude, stupid, taxi drivers (sorry to say lah.. I'm proud of my Sarawakian) really annoyed us and gave us a bad impression on the local people there. Hello, ingatlah budi bahasa budaya kita. Mun cari makan biarlah ikhlas sikit. Hotel semua full and they didn't take any guests after 10pm. So we lepak @ Ipoh Town until 4.30am. Then berangkat ke KL Sentral. Seriously shit, the Mcd's restaurant open 24hours. Dikemelik ka bala org taxi ba bus stop diak. Rehat there everything, waiting for the bus. The earliest bus to Genting Highlands was @ 7.30am, but ticket habis. So we decided to take taxi. Much comfortable and no jammed @ all.

Bla bla bla bla... Malas mok cerita. Reached Genting Highlands, checked-in but couldn't go into the room. We left our baggages and went for breakfast @ Marry Brown. Sedappppp lah the fried chicken. :)

Then the fun begun. Besttttttt!!!! Paid RM70 per person, then we went for outdoor and indoor games. That was fun!!!!!!!!!! I just couldn't described into words. All I can say is that, "GO AND EXPERIENCE IT FOR YOURSELF!" If you think you need to scream and crying @ the same time, go for the flying coaster, roller coaster and space-shots. Pirate ship, haunted house. They were all scream it all out loud games. But I guess they are going to close for several months to allow the process for renovations and upgrading.

To go to the theme park hotel, we got on a ride with gondola. I JUST HATE THAT GONDOLA!!!! I have this height-fright, and mannnnn, it's like risking your life on that small stupid box named GONDOLA. but then if you are going there by bus or taxi, the road is not that good. Danger hooooo... So, choose which one do you want.. :)

Stayed up there for one night, then moving to KL. Nothing much in KL. Biasa jak.

Tired-face.. Missing Kuching @ 7am, 26th June 2013

Supposed to get on a ride in this bus, but last mins planned, we got on a taxi. :)

 Sorry, I just couldn't resist that peace-sign"

(-_-)

Inside the gondola.. Hotel on the other side.

On June, 27th 2013 @ Place Hotel, KL

Dayung-dayung must take a picture b4 the gondola starts to move and after you took off from the gondola.. Pay, you know.. RM35-RM50 for one picture.. 

@ Nite on the 26th, June 2013... Jalan-jalan only coz we removed our tags. So couldn't play any games.. You see the duck behind there.. Annoying.. :D

Courtesy from friend coz I didn't take many photos.. We just enjoyed the nite & the scenery.. Didn't bother to take photos & sharing them with the world..That's the famous casino. Oh-nooooo! We didn't berjudi. Not our type. :)

The most expensive picture that you have to pay is when you enter SNOW WORLD. We paid RM150 for this softcopy, okayhhhh.. and the softcopy only contained like 11 pictures.. or more.. can't remember.

Courtesy from friend too.. Siap edit lagi this picture. Like it!

Casino de Genting..

 

Snow World!!! I even got myself a jade with my name in Chinese there.. 

I'll upload later.. :)

This is the one that I told before.. It's a jade from Taiwan.. When they asked what to carve on it, I said,"Moon.. Just put Moon. And please spell it in Chinese.." So this is the outcome. Still keeping it coz berat lah.. I wore it for a few minutes 2 days ago, then took it off coz felt heavy..

Post this one.. After I get all the pictures, I will try to upload more. As I don't upload them on my FB.. :)

July, 5th 2013

Wanna type sumting, something but still can't find my words to describe it... Will update soon. Meanwhile, just enjoy my Friday, with not so much fun, I guess..

Updating again. Just came back from lunch. Didn't take a long time to eat. Ngagagagaga!!! We will be having our staffs' assembly at 2pm today.

Not having a normal swing this few days. Terok is the word that I can use for it. Too bad because it affected my inside. My heart my feeling. Underpressure because you really expect someone who knows you for a long time to understand, but wrong. They don't seem to understand. I can't really get everything into words as I'm not very good in expressing my true inner feelings. I guess I'm too good in "jaga hati orang" but no one ever "jaga my hati". Still have that feeling to go far far away from here. Disappear from everyone who knows me. But then I don't have the heart to do it. I don't have the heart to break people's heart. Feeuuuwwwww, what the fcuk!

Still trying hard to set aside the sparked inside of me. Makai dalam. And it can take forever to get rid of it. The scar will always be there. The wound will eventually heal but the scar remains.