This is my second attempt of typing something as I lost everything that I had typed just now.. Damn... Now I don't know what to tell.. Lost all the words.. Bad news or good news, I can't tell you which one.. A part of me felt the relieved of it, part of me telling me now it's time to work hard to find a new job.. Just like what I expected before, they didn't renew my contract.. So, ya that's it. What else to say...
Confession: I may not show it, but I feel something will be missing from my life.. Those students that I teach.. Believe it or not, I love them.. I may not show it as this is my job, teaching is teaching.. Being a part of those students is another side that I have to set a line... For almost a year I spent with them, I don't even have a proper social life.. That's the sacrifices that I have to make when I accept the job before.. Hopefully the students will continue to work hard next year. Hopefully they will do their best in their educations.. Gonna miss them.. :)
Job: Haaaaaaaaaaaaa... Still eager to continue with my plan.. hehehe.. but again still not sure whether to do it or not... Hhhhmmmmm.... Let's wait within these three months.. Praying for the best.. I'm a believer. Put all my prayer and hope in God's hand... He knows the best for His children.. Amen. :)
Love life: Arrrgggggggggghhhhhhhhhhh.... Seriously, I'm not ready for anything.. I just love my life now.. I don't want any commitment... Spending my time with family and friends because I missed most of my time to be with them before.. So this is the best time for me to spend my time to be them..
Social life: Oh-hooooooooo.. I love this part.. Clubs, cafes, restaurants.. That's where I spend most of my time with friends and family... Clubs on weekends.. During peak times like now where I have to prepare exam papers, I stop going to club.. Buzyyyyyyy.. Even to dine outside also I can't find the perfect time... Can't wait for holiday..
Reflect back... 8th September 2012.. Saturday...
I don't know why I got so emotional yesterday during sunset mass.. Everything went smooth until the very last mass where I broke into tears... I couldn't help it.... The feeling and the things that happened, it's already a year but it seemed that I couldn't get rid everything from me.. Looking at where I used to sit during mass with him, it just robbed my heart away.. And the question where did we do wrong always appear in my mind and I just can't get any answer for the question.. but God knows what is the best for me.. And with faith, I trust in Him as He will lead my way... Believe that everything happens for a reason, give thanks for everything.. bad things never come from God.. Good things come from God, bad things happen because of human faults.. I always remember those to keep me strong and be tough in my heart.. Sometimes I seemed lost in my life, but most of the time, I will get my way back to God.. And I am very thankful for He is always there for me to guide me whenever I need him to be there.. without doubt.. Maybe that's why I broke into tears in the church yesterday.. Thank you for everything You have given to me, dear Lord... I may not understand everything but I give and trust my life and my destiny in You, God.....
The Man Who Sold The World....
My favorite......
Whenever I feel down, I listen to this song.. It helps to lift up my mood... I just smile when I listen to Kurt Cobain, especially when he played that lead guitar... Sound PERFECT to my ear.. He did it better than the original singer on this song.. :)
We passed upon the stair, we spoke in was and when Although I wasn't there, he said I was his friend Which came as a surprise, I spoke into his eyes I thought you died alone, a long long time ago Oh no, not me We never lost control You're face to face To The Man Who Sold The World I laughed and shook his hand, and made my way back home I searched for a foreign land, for years and years I roamed I gazed a gazeless stare, we walked a million hills I must have died alone, a long long time ago Who knows? Not me I never lost control You're face to face With the Man who Sold the World Who knows? not me We never lost control You're face to face Of the Man who Sold the World
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